*~If Only You Knew~*

I had gotten into a fight with my dad before I wrote this.

If only you knew how it is to be me...then would you see?

I know you think it is the same as when you were my age.

You may think that you've been through it all already because you were a teen once...

It's not the same because you're not me, this isn't your generation and you're not a teen.

 

If only you knew it all, if only I wouldn't get too scared to tell you everything.

I know it's hard to believe that I'm your daughter because of how many wrong choices I make...

Every time I say I love you.. I mean it, but I just don't know exactly how or what to do to prove it.

I know I've been taught better..but I guess the thing in my head that tells me when something is wrong isn't there.

 

If only you knew what it's like in my head...then will you realize?

I know I probably just take everything for granted...

You may think I'll never change, but there is still time...It's not too late, it's never too late.

It's not the same for me as it was for you, the world has changed and I guess it's just hard to catch up with for most.

 

If only you knew how terrible I feel, but you don't because I don't show it...That is one of my many flaws.

I know no one is perfect and I am probably the most imperfect person on Earth...

Every time I say I'll change..I never really apply myself..but that changes now.

I know it'll be hard but for you dad...I will finally try my hardest because I need you and I won't have you forever.

 

Please, take this into consideration and don't give up on me just yet.

I love you dad...

 

It has taken me 15 years to finally realize my mistakes, and I will definitely try harder to be a better person...

For you, for the rest of my family, and for all my friends.