Time

The illusion of time and its inconveniences

The lack of time is suffocating. The clock by my beside table keeps ticking, on and on, like a ticking bomb ready to explode at any moment, with no warning whatsoever. Meanwhile I'm here awake... lying on my bed, wondering about how many more seconds have I wasted thinking of this. The pile of work atop my table propels me out of the bed and yet five minutes later I find myself gazing again like a lost puppy at the white ceiling of my bedroom. This bed of mine is too seductive. It claims me without any warning and I find myself unable to refuse it... every single time.

Honey, you should go play outside. Today it's such a nice day.

But momma, today I wanna sleep late in my bed, may I?

My love, it's not healthy for you to stay like this

What if I say that's my life's greatest wish?

In that moment time freezes and I can clearly see in the ceiling those familiar deep amber eyes. Waves of warm auburn hair and sweet like candy voice which resounds within my rib cage. Then the ticking of the clock returns and I forget how the voice sounded, how it moved, how it breathed. There is only the blank ceiling and this uncontrollable will to cry inside my chest. Yet I remain still, eyes gazing forth at the ceiling which never left my field of view.

Today was just like all other days. The clock kept on ticking, my mind kept on wandering, my body floating, inside this room which I never left and this bed which kept me locked in a daze, like a prisoner.

Beside me, the old clock keeps on ticking and time is passing by. However my bed, as always, as if possible, holds me close in her sweet arms as if eluding the high paper tower by my desk and the mighty ticking of the clock.

Reviews

[alanwgraham]

Time sucks you in and spits you out. It speeds by and it drifts along. It measures our passage through life and yet we cant quite get a handle on it. I think your story captures this puzzling nature of time very well.
Very thought provoking!
Regards,
Alan

[Tiny Drop]

Thank you very much for your review Alan!
Yes, it's exactly like you described it, time does suck you in like some kind of black hole and then it's almost as if the mind takes the opportunity to play tricks on our conscience. It takes only a moment and we are lost to its waves of awareness and oblivion. One moment you were up doing something important, the next one you let yourself be enraptured in some wild thought and reality fades away.
The time and the mind are indeed dangerous allies in life's war.

[Gypsy Warrior Queen]

This is why I arise and do not look back ...I make myself leave the room...I shut the door tight...quietly not to disturb even the coverlet and I creep mischievously like a ghostlet to the coffee pot. I fear if I miss the cup or the step all will be lost and I will yet return to the warmth of the comfort and the lullaby of my once ticking clock:)

[Tiny Drop]

Coffee is indeed a powerful weapon to escape my laziness and the mighty hold of my bed's comfort. Its scent is enough to jolt me awake sometimes. Still there are some days when even coffee can't save me and I need to use all my willpower to escape sleep's embrace. So every day without fault I learn the meaning of persistence, maybe one day I won't need it anymore, who knows :)

[Gypsy Warrior Queen]

I had insomnia for about 21 years...I would only basically sleep about 3 hrs. from about 3 or 4 am to 7ish. about 4yrs ago I had to have my gall bladder removed. Since the day I returned from the hospital I have slept all night. It is very strange. It is as if my body now craves sleep and I feel like Im dragged from the bed every morning...so I get where your coming from.

[Tiny Drop]

That seems tough Queenie but I'm glad you're better now!
Since the body wants what it wants, it's not our place to judge or question it. When the body has been sleep deprived for so long it will normally seek what was before denied. So you can only care for it as you've always done and hope the craving will subside, one day at a time, and since sleep is also good for the health do enjoy the long nights of well rested sleep!