Seeking Comfort in Darkness

The day approaches on the calander

Memories begin to flood my mind

I wish I could go back

Just to see if there was something I missed

My heart aches knowing I'd give anything

Just to go back to you

The tears flow freely down my cheeks

Remembering the last breath you took

Your spirit left leaving your body cold and lifeless

Burying my hands in my face 

My body begins to shake

A flood of overwhelming loss

The grief covers me

Like a heavy blanket

The feeling of a bowl ball

Sits on my chest 

Falling to the floor

I begin to break down

The nurses come

They try to console me

Leading me out of the room

But I cling to your bedside

Looking into your face

Please come back

Don't leave me here alone

Please

Crawling on the bed

I curl in a ball next to you

Wrapping my arms around you

Please just hold me

Tell me it will be ok

Come back

I need you

The nurses call security

They pull me out of the room 

I watch them take your body away

The grief becomes heavier

My back against the wall

I slide down

Feeling empty and broke

A feeling of weakness sweeps over

My body is limp

Like a rag doll

No bones or muscle

I sit in that spot for hours

Not able to move 

An uncomfortable sting 

Burns my eyes

A blanket of darkness covers me

Everything feels so cold

So lifeless

I go home to an empty house

I keep the lights out

Seeking comfort in darkness

Wanting to be alone

I close my eyes

Picturing your warm smile

The soft tone in your voice

The pain in my chest grows deeper

The sobs heavier

Laying on the ground breathless

Please come back

If only it were me

Not you

I would take your place

If I could

I whisper curses

Why her?

Why let her suffer?

Only to die in the end

My day turned to darkness

My summer turned to winter

Sometimes I come to see you

In the times 

When I need you most

Laying across 

Where your body would be

Sultry tears soak the ground

A cold wind blows across my back

Giving me the sensation

Of your hand rubbing to comfort me

Words from my mouth hit the ground

Wishing you could hear me

Longing for your comforting touch

Please

I need you

Reviews

[shallimarRose]

This is a fantastic piece WRose.. So sorrowful and powerful.. I clearly remember reaching in the casket and holding daddy's hand and my uncle grabbing me and taking me away from the viewing room at the funeral home. some things never leave us. I would like to have permission to share this piece.. xo

[FlatLineBeauty]

Of course you may. Thank you Rose. xo Winter

[Antoñyo]

Another vivid journey you take me on in this powerful and capturing piece. I can't help but feel your pain.
If they ever invent Hug-surround technology for computers...just sayin'
"Healing is a process...trust that process"

[FlatLineBeauty]

thanks bud

[koty bell]

Really sad winter:( but a good write

[FlatLineBeauty]

thank you!

[Derek Smith]

this is good, I like it better than the last one. Got a real feel for it and was able to get a good mental picture of what your words were saying. good job :D keep it going

[FlatLineBeauty]

Thanks bud.

[Derek Smith]

no problem :)