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written 06/03/2010

I feel I've had very short chapters here lately in life

But though they are short

They are filled with valuable information

That may be able to be used someday in court.

Just a year ago, I was broken

I was so willing to just give it all away

I wanted to give up on myself

Crawl into a dark hole and sleep forever and a day.

So many friends have been lost to me

They are not dead and I know where they reside

They gave up on my friendship

And I couldn't persuade myself to fight.

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There have been no lost loves

no, that happened many, many moons ago

But recently, potential lovers confuse me

I don't know which side of me to show.

People say just be yourself

Its harder for girls like me

We are Gemini, everyday we change

never knowing will you like what you see when you see.

Love is overrated, and dating is a f*****g joke

at least it is to me

just friends or just sex

is all my future sees!

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We're all just a bunch

of fools rushin into love

You create your own destiny

and all those people around you will always be there to f**k it up!

I feel betrayed

I didn't ask to be this way

All I ever wanted was a family

a complete family, including a husband and our babies.

I don't get the husband, and they don't get a daddy.

They should resent me, and perhaps they will

They're missing out on what a daddy does

He teaches sports, building, hunting

and he's there to help mommy give unconditional love.