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A Poem by Amy Whetzell

written 2//13/08

I feel I've had very short chapters here lately in life

But though they are short

They are filled with valuable information

That may be able to be used someday in court.

Just a year ago, I was broken

I was so willing to just give it all away

I wanted to give up on myself

Crawl into a dark hole and sleep forever and a day.

So many friends have been lost to me

They are not dead and I know where they reside

They gave up on my friendship

And I couldn't persuade myself to fight.

There have been no lost loves

no, that happened many, many moons ago

But recently, potential lovers confuse me

I don't know which side of me to show.

People say just be yourself

Its harder for girls like me

We are Gemini, everyday we change

never knowing will you like what you see when you see.

Love is overrated, and dating is a f*****g joke

at least it is to me

just friends or just sex

is all my future sees!

I guess I should have warned you on this one. I'm scattered-brained all the time here lately. A thought forms and I have to get it out. I know why though. Money issues, home issues, and my stupid a*s thinking it was okay to see people again. Its never okay to date, because one thing you say or one thing you do, he'll take it like you never imagined it could be seen! I still don't know what I said or did that drove him away. There is only one man that will ever love me the way only a man can, and he can't have me. HE had me for 13 years and didn't realize what a deal he got till it was too late!

We're all just a bunch

of fools rushin into love

You create your own destiny

and all those people around you will always be there to f**k it up!

I feel betrayed

I didn't ask to be this way

All I ever wanted was a family

a complete family, including a husband and our babies.

I don't get the husband, and they don't get a daddy.

They should resent me, and perhaps they will

They're missing out on what a daddy does

He teaches sports, building, hunting