"LOST"

Every tragic moment in my life led me to the brink of my own insanity. Every horrid thing in my past memorialized in blood.

I read the lines on my ribs like words off a page

Written so beautifully with the tip of a blade

Every emotion, thought, and feeling engraved

My skin became the storybook of my life,

Written inside was the tragedy that became me.

 

My blood was my ink as I signed away my destiny,

Slashed across my arms was the story of betrayal,

The story of a mom who was too sick to care and a Father too weak to stay alive.

My body became a memorial for tragedy,

 

The lines scratched into my legs deepened with every blow.

Every time his fist connected with my face the blade pressed down

Eventually my body became numb to his assault and painted red with my pain.

Every jagged line represented every time I screamed,

My life was like a huge tic-tac-toe game and my skin was the paper.

 

Every X represented each time you told me you didn’t love me,

O was every time I told you no but you forced me anyway.

Every drop of blood was a cry for help because as I looked in the mirror I realized I was truly lost.

 

I was lost in the maze of my mind every turn another memory I wanted to forget

I wanted to find the peace inside myself but everywhere I turned there was agony

Inside the walls of my mind countless voices were screaming to be heard.

Every voice an imitation of a tragic situation

My own mind is now mocking my past

Who am I anymore? I am lost.

Author's Note

tragic, cutting, blood, pain, past, lost,

Reviews

[LadyAnn68]

I pray that the ability to express yourself and pray that your writing will turn it around for you. You will find yourself through therapeutic writing and the more you write..the better it gets, the words slowly change for the better which in turn makes you want to continue to write. Beauty will come through this avenue if you let it! But the first thing you need to do is have the hint that you want to change inside yourself whether forgiveness or just moving on! I will pray for you! Try to find the parts of you that you do like and give them a chance to evolve. You write very well and paint the picture perfectly...you can do this positively if you try hard. I hope all goes well for you in this endeavor.

[A. Amos]

You are on gifted artist my friend love your style of writing. Well done.

[Willowbabyz]

Thank you very much

[A. Amos]

You're welcome

[junaid altaf]

exceptional flow!
well versed!

[Willowbabyz]

Thank you very much

[junaid altaf]

your welcome

[Gedalya]

Probably the most meaning poem of this type that I have seen.

[Willowbabyz]

Thank you very much, I poured a lot of emotion into it.

[Gedalya]

Many people do. The difference with yours is the sobriety of it. The emotion isn't so wet that it runs off the page.
There is a rational mind at work. . .

[Willowbabyz]

thank you very much