I am torn
Torn between a life that is
and a life that could be
I am alone
Alone yet accompanied
distant, though you can't tell
I am silent
Silent yet screaming,
apologies you'll never hear
I am sorry
Sorry for my mistakes,
the pain I see in your eyes
I am confused
Confused by the options
given in my fragile state
I am hurt
Hurt by myself
and the secrets I hold
I am tired
Tired of pretending,
wearing a mask of porcelain
I am done
Done with my mind
always dragging me down
I am afraid
Afraid of myself,
and where everything is going
I am realizing
Realizing that this
will never be over.