Can't breathe

My mind loves to confuse me, hurt me, abuse me.

Can’t breathe,

Lungs faulty,

Mind lagging,

Stomach twirling,

 

I want to move forward,

But I want to stop,

I am terrified, yet happy,

Wanting to be cautious, yet wild,

 

Without a doubt, I would change,

The past where all did transform,

But in the real world, I am stuck,

I can’t breathe, I can’t think,

 

I am the one in control,

Yet I have zero control,

You are an open book,

Me a sealed vault,

 

I know everything you want,

I know minimal I want,

Trying to keep moving,

Go away anxiety,

 

I could make this work,

I could stop before train wreck,

Your heart stitched on sleeve,

Mine is well and truly buried,

 

I could break your heart so easily,

I could push you away like everyone else,

I could make you smile, and laugh,

Why is this all my choice?

 

Can’t breathe, lungs faulty,

Can’t move, legs sunk in stone,

Don’t want to hurt you, don’t want to hurt me,

Go away anxiety, go away.

Reviews

[Harley Quinn]

I love it. A lot of others can relate to this poem. Great work.

[Hebe]

You are so skilled in zoning in on the feelings you capture it every time! Excellent write.

[WillaDanvers]

thank you so much :)