Leave Me Be

Leave Me Be

 

It was so much easier before,

I liked him and it was all okay,

I knew it would never go anywhere,

And that was okay, because it was easy,

 

But then you messed it all up,

You’re moving at the speed of light,

This isn’t so easy anymore,

My mind is so confused these days,

 

My feelings for him have not dissipated,

My feelings for you are not yet very strong,

I feel so much pressure to decide,

But I am afraid I will make the wrong one,

 

And so here I sit, typing these words,

Trying to find the courage, the strength,

To make this decision,

And change the path of my life,

 

I can feel my gut twisting into thousand a knot,

My brain frying into useless pieces,

I don’t have someone to help me,

I am so confused and drowning,

 

This pressure is getting heavier and heavier,

I know you don’t mean to make me feel this way,

You don’t even know the situation I am in,

You wouldn’t understand, I know that,

 

Instead I sink further beyond the surface,

My air vanishing while my doubts grow,

I want to make you happy, I really do,

But does my happiness have to be the price?

 

Please understand my plea,

Stop pushing me, please just stop,

I don’t know what I am meant to be doing,

I can’t breathe anymore, you need to stop,

 

Give me some space, some air,

You’re killing me,

You don’t know it,

But you are killing me,

 

I just want to scream, so loud,

The tears are so eager to flow overboard,

I must keep my heart in its cage,

It is the only way I have survive so far,

 

Please stop, you’re hurting me,

I want you to let me go,

For it to be of your own willingness,

So I don’t have to hurt you so,

 

Please, I can’t explain any of this to you,

I am damaged so much, too much,

And it is something I don’t want to tell you,

So please, just please… leave me be.

Reviews

[Hebe]

Willa this is such a moving piece, I felt the struggle, the fear. So very real, amazing piece.