Forever Yours

Inspiration hits us in the strangest of times

Every time I cast my eyes up from the familiar ground,

I find myself searching for you, you and your beautiful smile,

And every time I tear my eyes away from the unfamiliar faces,

I find myself falling to the ground in pain,

 

It’s been a year now,

It’s been a year since I have seen you laugh,

Since you told me you loved me,

And yet I still look for you in the never ending crowds,

 

You were my love,

You still are my love,

And yet,

I am no longer yours,

 

I don’t think I could ever let you go,

Not when I cry at the memory of you,

Not when I still search the hostile crowds for your dark hair,

Not when my heart still beats for you,

 

You weren’t meant to leave,

And I wasn’t meant to feel this way,

But here we are,

Broken and confused,

 

I visited you yesterday,

Or rather,

I visited what I have left of you,

Our beautiful daughter,

 

Together you lay, side by side,

Cold and grey, hand in hand,

That is what I have left to remember you by,

This stone 6 feet above your body,

 

And so every time I find the courage to look up,

I find myself looking for your face,

Or rather,

What I remember your face to look like,

 

Your face is crumbling before my very eyes,

I can only remember the small things now,

Like how your eyes are…

Were so very blue,

 

The look in your eyes when you told me we were having a child,

The way you cried when I upset you,

But the fine, fine details,

Like … like… I can’t remember them anymore,

 

They told me that I would forever remember you,

That I do not doubt,

But here I stand, with a tearful heart,

Crying because I can’t remember the fine details of you,

 

I stand up from the familiar ground,

I don’t look up this time because I know you won’t be there,

I move forward, one step after the other,

And I leave you behind,

 

You were my love,

You still are my love,

And yet,

I am no longer yours,

 

You aren’t here to love,

You aren’t here to cry, and to smile,

You no longer exist in this world I live in,

And that is the very thing that kills me,

 

I love you my dear,

But I can’t do this anymore,

I can’t hold onto a memory,

And destroy the happy we had,

 

I love you my dear,

And so I will now move forward,

I forever will remember you,

But you are the past,

 

The past is the past,

And the future is the future,

You are my love,

And this is the end of us,

 

I love you my dear,

I love you and our little girl,

Be happy above in the heavens,

For I will survive on this cruel earth. 

Reviews

[Coffee Vampier]

This reminds me of Eminem- the fluidity and the exicution of your words. It's a lot of heartbreak and a strong passage

[LazerRays]

this is very clever!!! it made me feel very strong in emotions!!

[Eyvindur]

Man this hit me right in the feels. This is awesome work and please keep up this stuff man !

[Hebe]

I'm so happy it's not your life... but your writing is real and brings out true feelings of loss...wonderful piece.....

[Jamestown]

Very well written, I feel your pain and emotions throughout:(
I am sorry for your loss and pray that you and your daughter
will be okay:)
Thanks for sharing and b-blessed!

[WillaDanvers]

Thank you - however i am lucky this is not my life and is only a fiction poem :)

[Jamestown]

Thank god!

[Tori Jones]

This is a very emotional poem, I found myself crying several times.... I really liked it though, and you did a great job with it...God bless...

Sincerely,
Tori...

[WillaDanvers]

Thank you! :D

[Tori Jones]

You're welcome...