Hurting Me

The other side

Harsh words and broken smiles,

That is what I have come to know,

Your snide remarks and hateful glances,

Bring my insecurities to the surface each day,

You laugh when I cry, when others laugh,

Your hollow laugh when you can’t push me enough,

Your tense muscles when I attempt to protect myself,

The emptiness in your eyes when you leave,

You are almost the reflection of myself,

You look the way I feel,

But that doesn’t make any sense,

Because you are the one in complete control here,  

I see the way your chin wobbles when you think nobody is watching,

The way you dig your nails into your stomach,

I want to say something to help,

But then you go and rip my self-esteem to shreds,  

My tears fall every night, my heart breaking a little more,

My hatred growing by each falling tear,

Pathetic, Worthless, Not Important, Truly Alone,

Those are the words branded into my brain,  

I didn’t know how to react to the news,

Am I meant to be relieved?

Why didn’t you just take a breath and ask for some help,

Why did you become just like him?

No-one really knows what to do anymore,

What to say or what to think,

You really stumped us all with this one,

I didn’t think this was your next move,

Girls are crying, teachers are so confused,

My friends are silent, they think it was their fault,

I’m sorry, this shouldn’t have happened to you,

I should have said something to you,  

I should have been the bigger person,

I could have saved you,

I should have realised I was but a mirror,

Your temporary replacement,  

I should have done something but I didn’t,

Why didn’t I do something?

Your note has brought tears to each reader,

We can now see your pain,  

Abused and the Abuser,

You weren’t in total control,

You never were,

You never were,  

You’re gone and there is nothing anyone can do,

You’re gone and there is nothing anyone can say,

You look so peaceful now, no pain, no pain,

I hear your cries too late,

I want to follow for being so stupid,

For being so naïve, and for hurting you in ways I never knew,

But I will survive, just because you asked,

I will do this last thing for you,

I love you.

Author's Note

This is from the other side, the first poem is on my profile ' Hurting You'

Reviews

[Tori Jones]

Greatly penned...The feelings are very relatable...Thank you for posting...

Yours Truly,
Tori....