It's Not Clinic

Missing him:(

Listen to it.
The words you spit!
Make me sick!
Must admit....
Deep in my stomachs pit.
Feelings of panic!
Heart split.                        
I’ve been hit.
Acting like a lunatic!
Won’t commit!
Can’t take this sh!T
Can’t breathe and feeling sick.
Fire has been lit!
Sick of staying Silent!
Becoming erratic!
Love so violent.
Pacing now! Can’t sit!
Too much shock!  Too much static!!!
I’m not an addict!
I can quit!
Final tock...final tick!
Once tightly knit.
Now a loose fit.
Sparkling light beams of dust in the attic.
Missing it
Just a bit....
Needing one last fix!
Special kit!
Sliced and slit
What I have.... It’s not CLINIC!!