This Bitter Sad Clown

Painting on a big smile for the whole world to see.
Trying to fill these big floppy shoes without walking clumsy.
Acting like a crazy ecstatic fool just to get a laugh or two.
I put on a great show it seems, but I'm tired of always having to.


Pretending to be happy just to make someone else's day shine more bright.
Pretending for a moment that those big floppy shoes fit me just right.
Wanting to quit this terrible act I have mastered for years.
Wanting to let go of all these endless worries and fears.


Washing off this annoying clown face once and for all.
Kicking off these big floppy shoes that keep tripping me and making me fall.
I want to stop pretending I’m happy when deep down inside I’m not.
Time to show my true colors, because they are the only ones I got.


No more of the same repetitive clown colors that everyone expects to see.
No more beating myself up over who everyone expects me to be.
Sometimes I’m bitter
Sometimes I’m sad.
Sometimes I’m angry.
Sometimes I’m glad.


Today I have decided to paint my clown smile upside down.
Today you’ll just have to deal with me being... This bitter sad clown!