Do you believe in magic? Chapter One

A story about a young girl who goes through the struggle of coming out with her sexuality.

Growing up in a small town I was never really introduced to many people who were gay. I was always tout that it was wrong, that gays were an "abomination to Christ", but, I'm Atheist any ways, so what did it matter to me? It was still what I was tout at a young age. So, when my family and me moved to the big city of San Francisco, my eyes were opened to a new world of people and a totally new environment as well. 

I was in high school when we moved to San Fran. We moved so that I could go to an art school and further my artistic skills. It wasn't until i walked through the doors of the school for the first time that I meet someone who was a lesbian. Her name was Tila, she was beautiful, but I mistook her for a guy when I first meet her. She had this shirt, curly brown hair that hit right above her ears, and these beautiful big brown eyes that looked like milk chocolate disks sprayed with oil. I could tell by her eyes that she was high. She wore skinny jeans that sagged on her butt, and shirts that were one size to big for her. She was beautiful, very beautiful. 

We became the best of friends, she was at the school for photography and I was there for drawing and painting. We would sneak out into the hall ways of the school and sit down and talk. We would skip classes together and climb up onto the roof of the school and smoke a cigarette or the occasional "J". She insisted on walking me back to my apartment after school every day, just to make sure I got home safe and sound. I would even invite her in for diner and to study together. We became best friends.

It wasn't until one day when I was laying in bed to fall asleep that the thought had crossed my mind that I could be different. I wasn't into guys, I had never had a boyfriend in all 17 years of my life. I just thought that the right guy would come around, but I always passed up the "right guys" even when I did have a chance to be with one. I never once thought that I could be a lesbian. As I lay there, I thought to myself "What if I have a crush on Tila?" When that thought crossed my mind, I was shocked at myself. I didn't exactly mind it at all, but now it would be weird to have her be over and for me to just have an overwhelming urge to be with her. As I kept thinking, I remembered that she was staying over that Friday. The butterflies that entered my stomach where over whelming. All I wanted to do from that moment on was to see her face.

Everyday in school I would wait outside of the painting room for her, sometimes she showed up, sometimes she didn't. I wasn't worried, I knew that she had a job with a lot of hours and sometimes just didn't feel like coming in. So, when she wouldn't show up, I would send her a text and we would text back and forth all day long. But all I wanted to do was see her smiling face looking at me with her big chocolate eyes. That Friday, she didn't show up to school, but I knew she would be at my house after school, that's usually the way things worked out with her and I. The day just went as slow as possible, and all I could think about was getting home to see her and be with her. 

The second school was over I ran out of the building to go back to my apartment, as I was walking home, I got a text saying "Hey, I'm at your house <3" The heart got me, I rushed home as fast as I possibly could. I get to the building and walk up the four flights of steps to my apartment and there she was, smiling at me. "Hey, where were you today?" I asked her huffing up the steps. "I was working really late last night, I just couldn't wake up for school this morning." She says, as I open up the door to the apartment. My family lived in a big house in a suburban area of town for my younger sisters, they pay the rent for the apartment that I live in for me to go to school, so it's a place all for myself. We walk into the apartment and I throw my book bag down on the floor and kick off my shoes. Tila goes and takes a seat on my couch and kicks off her shoes. "So, what did I miss today?" She asks me "Not a lot, same s**t, different day." I walk over to my speaker set up and plug my phone into it and put on Dave Matthews Band. I turn around to Tila starting to roll up a blunt for her and I to smoke. 

"I have a crazy question for you." I asked her as she was rolling up. "Ask away, chica" She says looking at me with a smirk on her face. "When did you figure out you were gay?" She stopped licking the blunt wrap and looked up at me. I thought I had said the wrong thing and she would get mad, but to my surprise she let out a giggle. "I knew since I was young, but I never thought much of it till I was about twelve or thirteen years old. I dated a few guys when I was younger, but It never really felt right. I had always had an attraction to girls, and one day just decided that I would give them a shot. From that day forward I have been a bon-a-fied lesbian. Why are you asking?" I just looked at her. "I don't know, I was just wondering. You never really told me how you or when you knew." We shared a smile and she went back to rolling the blunt. I went into the kitchen and got a bottle of Dr. Pepper for her and I to share and took a seat next to her on the couch. She lights up the blunt and takes a hit of it and passes it onto me. "How do you know your straight?" I choked on the smoke when she said those words "To be honest, I don't. I have no idea what I am. My thoughts have been going crazy these past few weeks." I pass the blunt back to her and she looks at me. "Do you have a thing for a girl or something? I bet it's that hot Asian in our physics class, isn't it?" I let out a huge laugh "No, no... not her. Shes to girly." Tila then looks at me with this smirk on her face, and I knew exactly what she was thinking. "And yes, Tila, it's you I think I have a little bit of a crush on." She looked at me and dropped her jaw, "How did you even know I was going to say that!" I just smiled at her got up. "How does mac n' cheese sound for diner?" I say smiling at her still "That sounds good." 

I walk into the kitchen and start to make diner when I feel arms wrap around me from behind. "You know, I knew you weren't straight. Or at least high hopes that you weren't." She kissed me on the cheek and left the kitchen. I stood there in shock, realizing that I did have a crush on her and that she did have a crush on me. 

I finish up with diner and we sit down to eat. We didn't say to much to each other, but exchanged looks back and forth. I cleaned up the dishes and we migrated to my room, which was a normal thing for us. We lay on my bed next to each other, staring at the ceiling. I feel her look over to me and I turn to look at her. "So... you like me." I said in almost a whisper. "Yes... I do. A lot actually. I know we have shared moments as friends, and that's how I know we can do this. You're my best friend, and I really want you to be my lover too." I felt my cheeks turn red "Did... did you just...." I was cut off by her pulling me into a kiss. A kiss that was so sweet and lovely, that I knew I had finally found the person of my dreams, the girl that I will be with forever. We pulled away from the long, passionate kiss and she looked deep into my blue eyes, and pushed my blond hair out of my face, "Kayla, I love you. I've known this since the moment I first saw you. I have never had such strong feelings for any other girl." I could feel a tear forming in my eye when she said this and all I could whisper out was "I love you too." She smiled at me and took me into her arms. "I'll be here, always. From now till the moment we take our last breaths." She stroked my soft, blond hair and held me until I dozed off into the most perfect sleep. 

Author's Note

This is my first story, so please be kind. As I keep writing and developing the characters, they will get better, so please read, and give me any sort of feed back. :) thank you

Reviews

[Raven Starhawk]

For a first story it is remarkable and shows veteran signs of skill. I am also quite entertained by the characters within. They are for me more than characters. I saw them clear in my head and their interactions were believable and like people I might have known before and lost contact with. I realize I am rambling. Anyway...great story!