Work In Progress

 My eyes light up
When I look at you.
You put on a mask, 
But I'm looking right through
In to a heart 
That's already been broken

I pick up the pieces just one more time
And re-assure you
That you'll be fine.
So you can walk down that back road
Back to her.

She holds your hand
As I hold my breath,
Our friendship walks a tight rope,
Close to death,
And even closer 
To falling in love.

You wanna see true love?
Just look into my eyes.
You may wear a mask,
But I have no disguise
I'm putting my heart out
To be broken.

Your tears are like daggers
They just rip me in two,
You're crying over her
But I still nurse you through,
Just so you can go back
And break me again.

You may think I'm suicidal
That I enjoy the pain,
I like the feeling
Of going against the grain.
But I just can't stand
Missing you.

So don't leave at the airport
When I'm taking a train.
Don't leave me on the sidewalk
In the pouring rain.
The rain can only 
Wash away my tears.

It can't heal all my sadness
With the slightest touch,
It can't make me smile
And feel too much,
It doesn't hold the magic
In your eyes.

Don't turn away,
I don't want to see your back
I'm sorry for my failures
Everything I lack
That doesn't let me be
Good enough for you.

 

I'm sorry I'm not perfect

Don't give up on me.

I'm not polished to a shine.

You may not see yourself in me.

But I'm not through,

I'm still changing.

 

I grow and move and sparkle,

More and more each day

Rooted in the past,

Is not a place I'll stay.

I'm still,

A work in progress. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Author's Note

This poem itself is still a work in progress, it may change if I decide I don't like the new ending.