Overweight

When you can't take yourself, help yourself.

Here I go again. 

Chewing the pain away.

Swallowing my emotions.

The way I eat,

How much I eat,

What I eat.

It shows what's going on inside of me.

...And I'm here thing it's hiding everything.

But when I eat, 

I'm comforted.

I feel almost safe.

Only, 

That's when I'm eating.

Because the moment I finish eating,

The moment I put the fork down,

That moment is the moment it all comes back.

The pain...

The emotions...

It all comes back...

Every pound holds self-hatred.

Every inch is developed by insecurities.

It gets harder every day.

Being too big for clothes.

Getting stared at in public.

No one wants to hang out with the fat kid.

So I'll bare.

Just hand me a fork.

I'll eat my pain-filled emotions away.

Reviews

[Anahat]

You have penned down my feelings it seems!
Its really difficult to be overweight n survive in this world which appreciates the outer beauty.
Lovely :)

[Chloe_Spence]

So beautiful Jessica :)

Bittersweet.... I like the fact that you are not afraid of writing about stuff like this- it shows how talented you are :)

Good on you! :D

[JC]

damn this is raw and so bared and out front, I love it, not the pain you are feeling, but that you know what it means to be a writer, to display all of you, like a painting that makes people uncomfortable but makes them think...beautiful write.

[Simon Welsh]

Beautiful but dark. Nicely done.

[Mayank]

the narration is superb, love the way you have used two different fonts, and I liked reading your poems because of the way you express it.

[Charlie Ragsdale]

I'm really enjoy reading poem after poem all I gonna say is this one of the best poetry I ever read