Railroad Tracks

This time, the end isn't the beginning. 

The end is simply the end.

I cannot feel anything towards you.

..No love, nor any hate.

I feel blank. Just blank.

And I feel that the end of this is blissful,

I feel that the end of this is woeful,

I'm confusing myself...

Is it one...

              ..Or the other?

It's both.

Both blissful, and woeful.

Blissful to find peace at last. No more arguing, no more doubts.

Woeful to find that, again, I'm back at square one.

With a hole in my heart you once filled,

With loneliness swelling in my head.

I'm looking at the railroad track,

Wondering where you are,

I long to hear the rocks clash together,

Seeing your glamorous smile.

The beginning was always the end. 

Why couldn't I have seen it coming then?

Reminiscing old times,

Struggling to hold in the sobs,

I found peace,

But in that, I also found loneliness.

Why couldn't the end just turn into another beginning?

I claim I do not love you nor hate you,

...But that's all I can feel.

Hate and love. Love and hate.

I'm losing myself. Losing all containment.

I'm looking at the railroad tracks,

Wondering where you are,

I long to hear the rocks clash together,

Seeing your glamorous smile.

I've run out of things to say,

I have nothing left to save.

I'm writing my goodbyes,

Weeping at the thought that this is my last farewell I can ever say,

Letting you know I'm not coming back,

...Ever.

Closing my eyes,

The sound of rocks clashing together replays in my mind.

Tears swell up as I recollect the image of your smile.

These railroad tracks hold memoirs of the best years of my existence,

Everything I'm about to let go.

The railroad tracks found me peace,

...But in that, it also found me loneliness.

Reviews

[Mayank]

It's an emotional piece, you have picked up very good flow here. Keep it up!

[The Twin Arenas]

"I long to hear the rocks clash together"
that's a nice line
reminds me of rock n' rollers the clash
it's a sad poem
for awhile I thought
it was about someone being hit
by a train

[Ana B.]

Very strong and emotional.....the last lines induce a lot of thinking from the reader's part. Lovely work.

[Emily]

I like the meaning!
Great idea for a poem!
Well done!

[Brook]

Powerful, well all of your writing usually is. You're a really good writer, and i enjoy everything i read.

[Simran Kewlani]

I don't know what to say after reading this poem. Your comparison is amazing and trust me it makes the poem seem beautiful.
Your rhyming code is off but that doesn't affect the flow of the words. That's a great job.

[Chloe_Spence]

Bittersweet...yet truly wonderful :)
I love how you used the railroad tracks as your source of imagery...
You are a great writer, and I support you and encourage you to continue- your work really shines and stands out :)