The Addict

"My last cut,

My last drink,

My last pill",

Says the addict,

"No more pain,

No more tears,

No more sleepless nights,

I am done,

I want to change myself & my life",

Yes,

Addict,

Yes,

Keep saying these lies,

Pretty soon,

When the world comes down,

& you face reality,

You'll want to return to your fantasy,

Yes,

Your made-up world with the cuts,

Drinks,

& pills,

Your fantasy if being dead is all what makes you happy,

When all the problems you ever had come back,

You'll be that addict once again,

You're setting yourself up to get broken again,

You'll fall into the hole you think you're filling,

You'll become numb with all the emotions you think you're finally showing,

You'll realize the help that you though came was never there,

You'll be drunk,

high,

& scarred again,

My last cut,

My last drink,

My last pill,

No more pain,

No more tears,

No more sleepless nights,

...Right?

Facing myself as I talk to myself in the mirror,

Smirking with self-doubt,

Sure you addict,

You will change,

How hard can it be?

Let's see how far you'll get before your life ends by your own hands.

Reviews

[Pixieblue]

Many of my friends and even myself have been down this path, my ex was a very bad addict and it's hard to see where he once started and now is. Im getting better but every word of this hit me like a block of ice to the gut. It's hard and it's horrid. 'S**t things are getting bad, let's do another line' it turns into a thing where there is no day without some sort of drug, and when that doesn't work, and the mental pain is covering what real pain would be like, cutting was the only option to seperate the two.

[Luna Zerimar]

Wow...

It's like you know what's going on.

I used to be an addict.

...Well, that's what I keep saying..

But the urges are coming back, & the cutting started all over again.

I don't know how to handle anything, & that's why I write it all down.

..So I can hopefully stop.

Thanks for reading.

[Brook]

Very powerful, and emotive. You made me feel all different emotions throughout. Wonderful work!

[Luna Zerimar]

Thank you.

Different emotions? That's not what I was going for, but ah, that's good. (:

[Brook]

All poems affect us differently. It was just a mixture of feelings. But you're welcome.

[dakarai]

Very interesting write. I am enjoying the honesty in your writing

[Luna Zerimar]

It takes a lot to write things like this, & post them.

[star73]

very good job well done kind of like mine in ways.

[Luna Zerimar]

Really? Send me yours.

[Chloe_Spence]

This was a very influential and well written piece :)

[Luna Zerimar]

......Thanks.

[isus]

yes, just selfdestruction in lack of something. is it really that bad?

[Luna Zerimar]

I'm not sure..