Frowning Clowns

Is it alright?
To not know where you are?
In or out of sight?
Dim or very bright?

Only walls to justify
Why we yearn for stars
And angry flesh-colored scars

Is it alright for you?
To hear your mind pout
When it hasn't a clue
What it babbles about?

They say what you are
Is who you are
And who you are is not null
If everyone were perfect and similar
Life  would be quiet dull

Yet why do my eyes
Itch and hurt
From watching
Flocks and swarms
Of copies and twins
All identical in unfriendliness

I had let my guard down
And now I stand defenseless

I had allowed you to see my frown
And now they are endless
Possibilities, I meant

A coward, a weakling, a clown
Roots chipped and bent


Go ahead, and assume
I would no longer fret
But know that
however I am named
I am not yet but soon
To be the marionette
Threads 'round your fingers
Lips solid red
And heart-shaped
Eyes black tragedian
Slowly swaying
To your accordion...

Author's Note

I am really upset and confused. I don't know how to make it go away.

*Image: Clown
*By: Nidoleaire
*Link: http://browse.deviantart.com/?qh=§ion=&q=clown#/dvzskz

Reviews

[Mauricio Montoya]

Sometimes it hard to deal with our emotion especially when the answer are scatter all around in different direction they say clowns laugh and smile to keep what hurts inside, but I feel we must released it with a positive out look.. I think you’ve done a great job in putting this write together.

[Rafif]

I'm glad you're writing habit's active; trying to let out all what's bothering you on a white page. I try to draw when I have such emotions strangling me (doesn't work all the time). Keep in mind: It's only a matter of time till it fades away, there will always be a bright side to look at.

[Kandy]

Fourth stanza is my favorite. Even though this poem is emotional, it's also insightful. Nice job.

[YouoweYoupay]

Really? I'm glad you liked it. I was going through a mental turmoil when I wrote this. We all feel lost and unidentified at times. I hope the message soaked in. Cheers.

[Danielle]

I liked this very much, it captures the raw emotion inside!

[TL Boehm]

Peace. Some things just have to run their course. As for the poem - what really hit me was the subtle internal rhyming in the last bit. Very strong.

[Eagle Cruagh]

FOCUS

Think--- there is one thing that you would like to do
and society approves.

Pull yourself together and go do it . NOW !
The rest of your life will fall into place.
----- John

[TC Dunn]

such raw emotion. It makes this such a powerful poem.

[Sleeping Maiden]

God, i am so sorry you are hurting so much. I feel your agony here!!! Your poem is heartfelt. I think it's alright to feel like this.. i love your metaphor too. Clowns are supposed to be happy but many know deep down they are sad. They make people laugh to liven the mood. This poem screams at me in a way i can really relate! Beautiful... the pain is what I can reach out to you... it's so hurtful...

[Wondering Mind]

Oh!! This is such a strong scream at a betrayed trust!!
Stanza after stanza you say so much.
I hope after writing this, things have cleared up for you.
Don't let those "a*s-umers" and "judge-mentals" get to you..As you so cleverly question in your stanza
"Is it alright for you?/ To hear your mind pout/ When it hasn't a clue/ What it babbles about? "

[fireblossom]

I like this. I feel this way often. Such stuff puts me into a funk where I am frustrated trying to play (my guitar) or write.

Nice work. Sometimes the only way out is to take a stand and shout into the storm.