Heart of CourageA Chapter by YouoweYoupayPiece by piece. And all that is left for me is a small prayer.Dear Kylie,
I'm disappearing. And there is nothing
that can make it stop. Not my letters, nor your realization of what I had been
writing; not my determination, nor my weak will.
I've tried sleeping them off, all my
thoughts of you. But I now understand that sleeping only brought me closer to
my own perish.
I'm disappearing, Kylie. And so is all
the furniture that surrounds me; the yellow lamp under which I used to write,
my half hearted pen and my notebook.
There is no returning. And there will be
no exceptions. My toes have already begun to seem like the fog that touches the
sea.
My darkness reminds me of all the time
wasted and all the time to which I can never return. She was kind enough
to leave something behind. My darkness has allowed only courage to remain by my
side.
The courage to believe in myself, the
courage to see that I will not be beautiful in some days and that it is okay.
I need to be brave, my friend. I need to
listen more, speak less and walk in the park more often.
And since my days are numbered, I will
need to make sure I have told everyone I know that I am thankful and that I
will not forget.
I will have to learn a few more songs to
play on the piano. I remember how your spirit glowed when you watched my
fingers waltz on the white and black keys.
I will have to admit that my parents are
sometimes right. And that they want to see me safe and happy.
I will have to translate some of my favorite
sayings and short stories I've loved as a child.
I will have to take those art lessons
I've wanted to learn since last year.
I will have to visit my sick aunt, the
one who calls me a princess and is eager to sit with me despite the aching in
her spine and legs.
I will have to learn a few recipes; I'm
very creative when it comes to chicken and pasta. Had we stayed together a bit
longer, I would have cooked for you.
I will have to train for that meditation
workshop I had been passionate about since the beginning of spring.
I will have to follow your lead, Kylie;
to open my heart and allow it to spill upon everything.
It doesn't have to sound very morbid,
but I genuinely have no idea when or how I can return to Earth.
I'm disappearing, Kylie. Piece by
piece. And all that is left for me is a small prayer.
And the courage to fall into the sky.
Sincerely,
~Rain. © 2016 YouoweYoupayFeatured Review
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StatsAuthorYouoweYoupayAmman, ..., JordanAbout"The Universe is made of stories, not of atoms." ~Muriel Rukeyser "There is no one more rebellious or attractive than a person lost in a book." “He allowed himself to be swayed by his con.. more..Writing
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