Eternally Sorry

This is my emotions for another day and month

Eternally Sorry~

I'm sorry eternally for the thoughts in my head

Even more so that sometimes they don't seem that bad

Sometimes they sing songs of love and joy

Others though they are screaming of loathing and misery

Some days they are telling me I'm pretty with a drop of sugar

Other days they are saying I am molded in a very ugly way

On opposite days in the early morning hours they tell me sweet nothings that drift me to sleep

On opposite nights they are telling me know is the perfect time to buy a knife

I am completely and utterly overwhelmed

A perfect lullaby where we die at the end

My internal light might not always be bright or even lit sometimes

For this I am eternally sorry cause I keep asking you for a light

I am eternally sorry for the voices in my head

Reviews

[chrysantheranium]

Beautiful poem - my heart aches for the poet behind it. No one should feel like they need to apologize for who they are or what's in their head, but I'm thankful that writing poetry is a good way for you to get those thoughts and fears concerning the subject out on paper. If you ever need to reach out to someone, even if it's over something that you consider "small" or a waste of time, know that you are deeply cared for. There is help out there, even if you feel helpless. If nothing else, my DMs are always open if you need someone to just hear you out, and there are plenty of hotlines out there that are open and more than willing to listen and provide support. Remember that you are lovely, and so is your work. :)

Friendly grammatical suggestions, as we as writers sometimes don't catch them when reading our work ourselves:
- "On opposite nights they are telling me know is the perfect time to buy a knife." // "Now" is the correct word in place of "Know," unless you were meaning to word the sentence a bit differently. So it could generally look like this:

"On opposite nights they are telling me now is the perfect time to buy a knife."

OR

"On opposite nights they know this is the perfect time to buy a knife."

It all depends on how you want to word it, but for the line that you currently have up, "now" will replace "know." Let me know if you need help with this, I'd love to help!

Other than that, this is a fantastic poem, and I hope you enjoy the writing as much as I did. Remember that you don't have to fight alone. :)