I’m tired of everyone thinking they’ve got a Problem. F**k that s**t, you know? F**k the Sober days, starting at zero, trying to make Something respectable out of your mistakes Because yeah, everyone knows you fucked Up big time, man. They can see the dirt on Your knees from tripping so many times and All that heroin you sweat out still stinks when Someone tries to give you a hug. Tastes like An oil spill. Feels like electricity. I’m tired of everyone trying to be sober. You Had a drink, spit up stomach acid and now You want to paint your flourishing habit like Some van gogh floral reblog. God forbid you Look up the meetings (i did). God forbid you Panic whenever you think of stopping by the Church to get saved (i did). God forbid you Tell your ex you really did go to the meeting Because he told you once he was sure you Had a death wish and you didn’t want him to Think you were crazy because guys don’t like Crazy and that’s a scientific fact (but I am Crazy, those kinds of stains don’t come out In the wash). You know, I just wish everyone would save Sobriety talks for the ones sweating out Prescriptions, covered in cigarette holes and Their own vomit. I want to see someone fly a Kite in a lightning storm. Meet someone at The meeting who tastes like thunder and Recycled cups and stale coffee and dollar Store donuts " my god, you don’t know what Any of that feels like, do you? Pretty princess With doe eyes blurting out buried quotes From an english class on romanticism held at The local community college, the girl who can Miraculously peel herself out of bed without Remembering the taste of crushed pills (love the numb, hate the dead sleep coma). It’s just, like, congratulations. You sort of Have a problem with collecting boxes of wine But so does every other f*****g girl your age And pretending to be sober is a lot like F*****g a stranger Because it means nothing but still satisfies That aching, hurting part of you still Searching But I won’t be complicit in your little game, Your lolita smile, coaxing laughter " You’re a damaged, dirty little sweet thing And the scars on your wrist are a road map But you don’t have a goddamn problem With the bottle pressed against your lips Anymore than you have a problem With the boy pressed against your hips
Gripping.
At first I thought "oh, another confessional poem" but this is more than that. It's more Baudelaire than Plath.
There's a disgust and contempt that rivets through the piece, not just for self, but society and pretty much everything else, but there's still a searching for some sorta salvation, terrestrial, celestial, biological, whatever, anything will do.
I knew a few ppl who did heroine, and this seems to capture their "struggle" and general alienation, self-imposed or not, or as transpotting said, who needs happiness when you got heroine.
But still there's a lingering craving for some sorta liberation.
What separates this from the general confessional stuff is the unique phrasing and details.
Had a drink, spit up stomach acid and now
You want to paint your flourishing habit like
Some van gogh floral reblog
With doe eyes blurting out buried quotes
From an english class on romanticism held at
The local community college, the girl who can
Miraculously peel herself out of bed without
Remembering the taste of crushed pills
even the off-shod endings of lines help to create a tone of frantic urgency.
It ends somewhat nihilistic. Pills or love are both treated as tragic addictions.
and i think the biggest disgust evident in this piece is when people pretend to be getting better when they really still crave all the stuff that got them to meetings in the first place...
it is that telling ourselves that we are no longer that person...when we really are and always will be...
this is a powerful "in your face" "tell it like it is " right...
i think Van Gogh might give his other ear for the honesty here.
j.
Gripping.
At first I thought "oh, another confessional poem" but this is more than that. It's more Baudelaire than Plath.
There's a disgust and contempt that rivets through the piece, not just for self, but society and pretty much everything else, but there's still a searching for some sorta salvation, terrestrial, celestial, biological, whatever, anything will do.
I knew a few ppl who did heroine, and this seems to capture their "struggle" and general alienation, self-imposed or not, or as transpotting said, who needs happiness when you got heroine.
But still there's a lingering craving for some sorta liberation.
What separates this from the general confessional stuff is the unique phrasing and details.
Had a drink, spit up stomach acid and now
You want to paint your flourishing habit like
Some van gogh floral reblog
With doe eyes blurting out buried quotes
From an english class on romanticism held at
The local community college, the girl who can
Miraculously peel herself out of bed without
Remembering the taste of crushed pills
even the off-shod endings of lines help to create a tone of frantic urgency.
It ends somewhat nihilistic. Pills or love are both treated as tragic addictions.