Another letter

I thought I'd already written my last letter to you,the heartbreak becomes hidden never lost and the love I still have will always live on.
My first love, how I hope you're not the last but my mind and my heart whisper something more sinister...maybe you are.
I smile through the tears at the thought of you,I couldn't write songs until I felt with you. But now what I find is a relationship not so straight forward,one I hope we both still want but one we're both still waiting for.
You're the first I think of in times of bliss and stress but to bring you to all the good places is a little unrealistic.
Your name is beginning to live in the bad,I see those photos a little more clearly now.It used to be me that made you smile, instead it's been replaced with a pout and a frown,I used to be next to you,now im nowhere near you, I envy the girl you've started to tease because I know our hearts together is where our future's meant to be.Together or apart we're a mark in our family's history.