Last night I was stressed out that I couldn't help but cut deep into my skin. The feeling of the blade cutting deep into my skin...the feeling was amazing. For a moment I felt nothing going on i my life,everything was at a total stand still. The blood ran down my hand and it felt amazing and I felt stress free. Once it was over I realized what I had done and I sat in my room talking to the love of my life while crying my eyes out because I knew that what I had done was wrong. I thought that she would hate me and that she would break up with me because I had broken my promise to her,but she didn't instead she was really understanding. She said baby girl its ok and I am therefor you whenever you need me because I love you more than anything in the world. When she told me that I realized that I DID matter to someone and that someone was talking to me and I was to blind to see it because all I was thinking about was who DID NOT love me. Thanks to that lovely person I decided that I don't want to cut anymore for my sake and hers as well as everyone else as well. So this post is a major thank you to my baby girl and to tell her how much I AM THANKFUL to have her because without her I would NOT BEABLE to do this at all.