Searching

I thought I knew who I was

or at least who I was supposed to be

But I was wrong

Somehow that comforts me

I am currently exploring

testing who I can be

but I don't think I'll find her here

not surrounded by my old life

I want to escape

to go on an adventure

pushing all my limits

meeting new people

trying weird things

but I don't want to do it here

I want to get lost on my own

and then and only then

I can find me who has been barred deep inside

She's been overlooked, hidden

all my life

I know I can find her

I catch glimpses every now and then

the glimpses seem to be coming more often now

the more I think of me first then others second

the more I say what I want instead of what I think they want to hear

it's all a consensuses thought though 

I catch her glance in passing

it throws me off guard

as soon as I see her, she's gone again

and can't remember how to get her back

The more I see 

The more I want

I'm starting to miss her

but I don't even know her yet

So, I'm Searching 

Reviews

[Peter Rogerson]

I've a feeling we all go through sessions of introspection, maybe for most of our lives. I'm getting on, but the mirror sometimes shows me young....

[Dr. YumnaKay]

"I want to escape
to go on an adventure
pushing all my limits
meeting new people
trying weird things
but I don't want to do it here"
This is so relatable! I feel as if this is for me.. This is brilliant work.. Don't we all seek ourselves the most? Searching all our lives to find the real us? I loved reading this!

[Ashley]

You portrayed the feeling of having to get away from the person you've built for others to find your real self. Of having to get away from those you built it for.