Canceled Plans

I can't be crying

not over canceled plans

but that's the thing, I'm not

this is just the straw that broke the camels back

because I'm not crying over canceled plans

I'm crying over financial  burdens

school failures

life plans falling apart

lost people 

and friends who no longer keep in touch

I'm crying because this gave me hope and joy

then it was ripped from me in a single second

I tried to salvage it 

but you said no...

I'm crying because the straw that broke my back

was once the straw that made it all worth it

So as my tears fall

so does the straw

but once again I hold my breath

swallow the tears

go on a long drive

and pick up that straw

because no one must know 

that I cried over canceled plans