Apathy Within Anorexia ~

Dear Jesus Christ I can't even stop crying. This is my anorexia story.

I didn't ever eat today.

I just hid on my bed. 

I ignored the pain in my stomach.

And I looked at what's ahead

 

There's a wall between me and food.

I remember what they used to say.

And it burns like a hot iron,

at the end of the day.

 

I told them that I wasn't hungry.

I can't believe they believed me.

And when I look in the mirror,

I feel free.

 

I have a feeling the scale is broken.

because it says one thing

and the mirror

says another.

 

I don't remember the day

I chose not to eat.

All I remember is feeling

so weak.

 

But the weakness fades

when you feel beautiful.

But the beauty only lasts for so long.

Before everything starts to go wrong.

 

I'm thankful that no one notices.

"I ate already."

"I'm not really hungry."

"I had a huge snack at Grandma's."

or just the simple

"I'll eat later."

 

Later never comes.

And the day escapes away.

And I sleep on an empty

stomach.

As I wither away.

 

 

Author's Note

This is specifically for everyone who is dealing with anorexia. You aren't alone. I'm anorexic too < 3
And I'm here if you want to talk about it. Message me, day or night. I will not tell a soul the things you tell me. Even if you're my absolute enemy, if you need to talk, I'm gonna listen, I'm gonna help you.

I'll help a complete stranger, because no one should face this alone < 3

Reviews

[:-)]

Wonderful poem. It hurt to read this though.

I'm probably not qualified to say this since I don't really know you well at all, but you should really try and eat some. I know the feeling of not eating because you just either can't or refuse to. Please try and eat. Being half dead and passed out on a couch isn't fun.

I hope you work past this rough patch.

Aggie

[A. V. Madison]

Thank you, Aggie.

[Admiral Kirk]

Wow, this is really powerful... It's not awkward, it's beautiful. Great job on the poem... And I really hope you find your way through this...

[A. V. Madison]

Thanks, Blue.

[Admiral Kirk]

You're welcome...

[Skye]

Why do you do this to yourself? I really hope you are able to overcome this. And your right, Life doesn't have a meter, it just happens. its up to us to find the beauty in it.

[A. V. Madison]

I don't know why I do this to myself, honestly :( but thank you for the kind review, Skye. Much love.

[Britt]

awww:( I hope things get better. Please eat something. :/

[A. V. Madison]

I'm trying to get through it, but things just get harder and harder. Thank you for the review though

[Britt]

aw, I hope you get thrrough it soon,. & you're welcome.

[A. V. Madison]

Much love, Britt

[Forever Hidden]

I hope your making your way to recovery though!

[A. V. Madison]

Thanks for the review, but... I'm not recovering.

[Forever Hidden]

Maddie!
You should've told me!

[A. V. Madison]

I know... but this is just another inner demon I'm dealing with.

[Forever Hidden]

I'm here for you!

[A. V. Madison]

I know :) *hugs*