Angels Never Sleep

Called Angels Never Sleep after the saying "Angels never sleep, but neither do the demons".

I began kindergarten

teary-eyed

and sad to leave

my family behind. 

I began first grade, 

a little scared, 

and ended up moving in

the middle of the year

400 miles away

and I don't know if I ever 

even finished it. 

I began third grade

in a whole new town, 

scared out of my mind

because we were close to being broke

I began fourth grade

with just a few friends

and a wild imagination

inside a twisted head. 

I began fifth grade with

no one. 

My friends didn't like me

anymore. 

I began sixth grade,

scared again, because

not all of my friends went to

the same middle school. 

I started seventh grade

with scars on my wrists, 

because we were almost broke, 

and I only had one true

friend that I could count on, 

who self-harmed too.

I finished seventh grade

with fond memories

and broken hearts, 

crying on my best friend's shoulder

because we both thought

we wouldn't make it.

We starved ourselves,

purged up food, 

slit our wrists,

didn't feel so good, 

had boys that broke our hearts

had boys that made us feel special. 

I ended seventh grade, 

came out to my parents as

bisexual, 

and here I'm left wondering, 

will I even survive eighth grade?

Author's Note

*Second grade isn't logged because I scored so high on the state standards test that I went straight to third*

Reviews

[Frieda P]

Oh Maddie Maddie...such a painful read. Of course you're going to make it, you're a tough cookie and a talented one at that....don't let the bozo's get you down, it's all part of life, we do survive. Show em your moxy girl....

[A. V. Madison]

That is so inspirational Frieda :) xoxo thanks. it's so nice to hear from you :)

[Frieda P]

My pleasure Maddie, enjoyed this glimpse into the chaos. ;-) xox

[beautiful dreamer]

ha! thats how i felt in 7th grade. but my best friend and i were eataholics who didnt give z crap. i had an extreme anxiety disorder (still do less prominent now) and she had self harm issues. now were both seniors in love and happy. it gets better babe

[Inspiring Writer]

To protect this world from earthly evils, Angels should gotta awake. Angels're only the one hope now who can protect Humans from earthly evils.
Very nice and a very bright sight of the poem that you've shown me by this piece, i liked this poem, here i can see some reality... of you eyes.
beautifully penn'd.

[Wolfwind]

Of course you'll make it and get through highschool and graduate and continue on down a path of your choosing... why? Because your not the type of person to quit and even though you get frustrated at humanity for their stupidity at times... you really do enjoy helping others... it's one of those feel good highs that make all the other crap seem not as muddy. OR at least, that's my guess. =)

I enjoyed how you set this poem up. It had a great flow and certainly made a person see a facet of who the writer is.

Thanks for sharing!
Aaron

[A. V. Madison]

Wow, you described me perfectly. I'm actually a destructive behavior recovery sponsor, and I do get a feel-good high from it.
Thanks, Aaron. Hugs!

[Wolfwind]

That's so awesome!

[Joshua Hunter]

hmmmm, this is interesting and very sad. But good job!