Insecure

Sometimes, fear becomes a mind of it's own. 

it never leaves but it doesn't stay long enough to get to know you. 

because as a modern teenager living in a industrialized world

where the people's main objective is to entirely unhinge you

I know the emotions one can feel

when they've just been pushed a little too much

When the hope finds a way to return

and the heart finds a mend itself

I know, both of us are looking for this day. 

Both of us are. 

Because you develop that thick outer skin

So no one can get in, but nothing can get out. 

So tell me this.

Why is it that between every weight loss commercial, 

or skin care commercial, 

or hair care commercial,

which, mind you, is filled with women that will always be a million times more

 beautiful than me, 

there is a commercial for fast food. 

Society says 

you're too skinny

you're not skinny enough

your hair is too short

your hair is too long

you look good

you look bad

I 

am

confused. 

Because right when I think I get it right

somehow society finds a way to change it. 

These little things in my life

have taken over. 

This is not a democracy anymore. 

This a dictatorship of insecurities, 

a war between what is good for me and what I need to look good

a mass of common people that are words like

'fat' 'ugly' and 'dumb'

all happening inside of me, 24/7. 

I'm not the only one out there like this, 

not the only one out there that is this close to tying their own noose

but you gotta listen girl, I know you understand me.

Things that people say, they don't last forever. 

Little talks you hear in the hallways, they dismember, they're gone. 

You gotta have to have faith, as hard as it is. 

You gotta believe in yourself. 

You gotta hold your pretty little head high,

you gotta back away from the toilet that you just threw up in after eating. 

You gotta eat. 

You gotta cry. 

You gotta learn to love yourself when no one will do it for you. 

There is a word for what you feel, honey. 

It's what we all have felt at some point. 

Insecure.

Reviews

[Rob Santana]

People have to stop letting television dehumanize them, it's ridiculous!! Accept yourself for who you are and be proud of it. Beautiful people have flaws too. Really good piece...