Apathy Within Anorexia ~A Poem by A. V. MadisonDear Jesus Christ I can't even stop crying. This is my anorexia story.I didn't ever eat today. I just hid on my bed. I ignored the pain in my stomach. And I looked at what's ahead
There's a wall between me and food. I remember what they used to say. And it burns like a hot iron, at the end of the day.
I told them that I wasn't hungry. I can't believe they believed me. And when I look in the mirror, I feel free.
I have a feeling the scale is broken. because it says one thing and the mirror says another.
I don't remember the day I chose not to eat. All I remember is feeling so weak.
But the weakness fades when you feel beautiful. But the beauty only lasts for so long. Before everything starts to go wrong.
I'm thankful that no one notices. "I ate already." "I'm not really hungry." "I had a huge snack at Grandma's." or just the simple "I'll eat later."
Later never comes. And the day escapes away. And I sleep on an empty stomach. As I wither away.
© 2013 A. V. MadisonAuthor's Note
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Added on January 5, 2013Last Updated on January 6, 2013 AuthorA. V. MadisonOnly a Kid, But Hard To Scare, CAAboutI'm Maddie. Clumsy. Short-tempered. Quite an oddball. Sort of silly. I make big plans then never do them. I have a fascination with tiny lights. I have atelophobia and OCD. I am the definition.. more..Writing
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