Apathy Within Anorexia ~

Apathy Within Anorexia ~

A Poem by A. V. Madison
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Dear Jesus Christ I can't even stop crying. This is my anorexia story.

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I didn't ever eat today.

I just hid on my bed. 

I ignored the pain in my stomach.

And I looked at what's ahead

 

There's a wall between me and food.

I remember what they used to say.

And it burns like a hot iron,

at the end of the day.

 

I told them that I wasn't hungry.

I can't believe they believed me.

And when I look in the mirror,

I feel free.

 

I have a feeling the scale is broken.

because it says one thing

and the mirror

says another.

 

I don't remember the day

I chose not to eat.

All I remember is feeling

so weak.

 

But the weakness fades

when you feel beautiful.

But the beauty only lasts for so long.

Before everything starts to go wrong.

 

I'm thankful that no one notices.

"I ate already."

"I'm not really hungry."

"I had a huge snack at Grandma's."

or just the simple

"I'll eat later."

 

Later never comes.

And the day escapes away.

And I sleep on an empty

stomach.

As I wither away.

 

 

© 2013 A. V. Madison


Author's Note

A. V. Madison
This is specifically for everyone who is dealing with anorexia. You aren't alone. I'm anorexic too < 3
And I'm here if you want to talk about it. Message me, day or night. I will not tell a soul the things you tell me. Even if you're my absolute enemy, if you need to talk, I'm gonna listen, I'm gonna help you.

I'll help a complete stranger, because no one should face this alone < 3

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Very emotional, well written and yet so saddening.

Posted 11 Years Ago


Reading this I can feel the pain you are going through. I wish you all the luck in the world in beating this disease. God bless.

Posted 11 Years Ago


I like this. Reminds me of a song by Superchick, though I forget the name. Anyways, I wish you the best of luck as you're going through this!

Posted 11 Years Ago


A. V. Madison

11 Years Ago

COURAGE BY SUPERCHICK!!!!!! ALSO KNOWN AS MY FAVORITE SONG!!!
Westminster Abbey

11 Years Ago

THANK YOU for reminding me! I haven't heard that song in forever... Well, off to listen to it! :)
Forever Hidden

11 Years Ago

OMG YES BEST SONG EVER
I used to be anorexic, I got help after I became a 6 foot 85lbs waste on life support. I still battle it at times, but Remember you can fight and you can win it, Anything can be survived. I am living proof. Your invitation is very sincere and sweet. Too bad it doesn't extend to everyone.

Posted 11 Years Ago


:)

Posted 11 Years Ago


A. V. Madison

11 Years Ago

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Dream Mistress

11 Years Ago

is is said, and I liked it
Wow, this is extremely sad and emotional. Hope everything goes well :(

Posted 11 Years Ago


A. V. Madison

11 Years Ago

Thank you, Mr. Diller.
Very emotional and well written.

Posted 11 Years Ago


A. V. Madison

11 Years Ago

THERE YOU ARE! We missed you < 3 and thank you for the review.
Brittany Zedalis

11 Years Ago

I was busy for the past few days, haha. My classes start up soon and I've been taking advantage of b.. read more
sorry to burst your bubble here, but your life does have a meter and if you keep depriving yourself of nourishment the meter will run out....get help. if this is not a real issue for you, it is a damned convincing write, well done!

Posted 11 Years Ago


quinfinn

11 Years Ago

i am happy to know you will get well!!!!!
A. V. Madison

11 Years Ago

Thank you, Mr. Quin.
quinfinn

11 Years Ago

always here for you
I feel no apathy nor empathy towards anorexics. If they think that their appearance matters more than what is inside them, then they are better off dead--is what I would like to say. It's a medically recognized disorder and there have been studies on how to control one's habits. People who are too self-conscious are idiots who doesn't deserve to live. They should give themselves in the hands of the malevolent Marshmallow. Long Live and prosper.

Posted 11 Years Ago


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A. V. Madison

11 Years Ago

Thank you dearly for your input Mr. Quuin, but my anorexia is triggered by my brain damage and the e.. read more
thank you for sharing such an emotional piece. Someone close to me is battling anorexia so I was very touched by your words. Not easy writing about this subject, you were able to do it in a most interesting way, well done.

Posted 11 Years Ago



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