My mind

My mind is it real or is it fake ? I ask myself why do you run from your thoughts? Why do you hide your thoughts from the one who cares . why do you live with your thoughts.the thing that people deal with you hide. My thoughts are real from the demons of the past . my thoughts tell me to hide because your not good enough. My thoughts say things that I should be doing . my thoughts race causing panic and anxiety. My thoughts are for things out of my control. My thoughts make me think that I'm not sure of myself . my thoughts of being worthy of being me . my thoughts of love and peacefulness.don't seem to last .the demons from work past relationships haunt my mind . I run from my thoughts but they come creeping in at the wrong time . I my mind starts to race and think and not trust anyone . the only safe place is in my mind . my mind seems to build walls to push people away. My mind is reckless .my mind displays boundries. My mind is out of control but when I let someone my mind shuts them out . my mind makes me ugly . my mind makes me crazy . my mind wants and wants until it takes over . my mind needs to be reprogrammed .by mind is my mind but it sucks that it don't trust or don't release but it's my mind