Bad but not giving up

was never looking to get out . I was merely asking in a mean way if you wanted me out .the only thing I ever wanted from you was to be yours . I love you like there is no tommrow I want to spend my dying days with you. Heart broke yes I love you and our family .
If we ever get to where we once was ill be the guy that will never let you go . you mean the world to me ,yes we are different people but we have the same goals . and as for sex well I wouldn't have cared if you had to go meet your needs .I want you I love you and want to spend the rest of my life with you . the smoking ill quit it sucks anyhow. You have always ment so much to me and I'm sorry we didn't talk we really should have . we really shouldn't be going thru this but we are . I can't sleep barley eat . but most of all I miss and love you with every part of me mind body and soul. You are my soul mate and I will not let that go . I'm going to be here for you for anything I'm very much in love with you and I'm very happy in our lives I would do anything to have you in my life . no matter what . I guess its not enough . I fucked this up like I do everything I'm not a bad guy I'm just a f**k up and I'm sorry