Be As A Friend

Trust…

Confession time, so listen

I’m causing contradiction

Inside I’m feeling empty

A part of me is missin’

And I ain’t wishin’, I’m kissin’

An evil-ish rendition

‘Cause this person I’m presentin’

Just really ain’t fittin’

I’m reminiscent of empty tempting

Where my world changed and rearranged until eventually

I’m left with nothing but body, mind, and soul

“Let’s see how many fall when this picture unfolds”

Be as a friend

And bleed ’til the end

As because sex was needed again

Far from the cry for freedom from sin

Drown inside our hopeless dreaming again

Allegations arise

When you’re lost inside your mind

I pray to God forgiveness

To “Please not leave me behind”

If I could rewind time

I’d just leave it all vacant

And traveled crossroads in my life

Would now exist adjacent

For you, let this be taken

My conscience is forsaken

By an evil-ish presence of fornication

 

As I’m making notes

 

Trying to learn from my mistakes

 

These reoccurring nightmares

I can’t seem to get away

Be as a friend

And bleed ’til the end

As because sex was needed again

Far from the cry for freedom from sin

Drown inside our hopeless dreaming again

I can’t breathe

God, please…release my sorrows…

Take away my pain…

And God, grant me tomorrow…

A better day…

And if I can’t escape all these allegations

Then God, grant me the strength to deal with what I’ve created

Let me relate and tolerate…

All that I’ve made

So that I won’t let this drive me to an early fate

‘Cause even if I deserve it, I already feel worthless

Apologies from the heart, ain’t nobody perfect!

We all have skeletons hiding in our closets

Everyone has seen the line, and everyone has crossed it

Now real quick, pause it. Does it feel like you’re falling

Into a depression, or whatever you call it

And to this, we’re the same

Says the weird to the strange

We both hold it in, never revealing pain

Causing us to change

But not to leave us for dead

To be stronger at heart

Tears us apart instead

 

“Love had no connection”

 

To this statement I wed

 

I’d rather cleanse my soul

Believe in what I’ve said…

Be as a friend

And bleed ’til the end

As because sex was needed again

Far from the cry for freedom from sin

Drown inside our hopeless dreaming again

I can’t breathe…

I can’t breathe

Reviews

[Anastasia Starlena]

This was phenomenal. Jason you are an amazing person. This write was full of the things that make you who you are. This piece give us a glimpse into who you are. We all have imperfections and things we fall on our knees begging for forgiveness. But those defining times create in us to do better. To write the wrongs. A usual brilliant piece. Thank you for sharing this. It was wonderful.

[-Aurelia Mirella]

Oh my...well my dear, you have managed to make me speechless. I know you shouldn't judge a book by its cover, but when I first read the title, "Be As A Friend", I was not expecting anything nearly as powerful as what was written. You're way with words is amazing! It's very pleasent for the mind. :) You had me going from one line to the next in a wonderful trance...

My favorite lines..."And if I can’t escape all these allegations

Then God, grant me the strength to deal with what I’ve created

Let me relate and tolerate…

All that I’ve made

So that I won’t let this drive me to an early fate..."

Beautiful job, Jason.
Always,
-Aurelia Mirealla

[Georgia Gypsy]

I didnt know what to expect at first, but as i read i was really impressed with what you've expressed with this piece. With the rythyme it feels like lyrics, i could hear music in my head.
I really enjoyed reading!
Great job.

kelli:)

[Sheila Marie Carr]

I'm speechless, Wow! you blew me away with that one, truth, honesty,is all we need to right a wrong.

[Twilight]

This is pretty good, Rachel! It has religious themes, but also reminds us of various issues relating to human relationships. Furthermore, the writer has been honest (and candid) enough, to portray her true thoughts and emotions. I noticed, that there is a quirky kind of flow to the opening lines. I wondered if other readers, had noticed this?

Whilst reading, I got the impression that the protagonist has quite low self-esteem? Also, a strong desire to write and share some of her most painful feelings, from the heart....

[ICE]

Everytime I read this I feel more I notice more things. You really bared your soul in this piece and I applaude you for it. I know that its a hard thing to do. I loved these lines.
"If I could rewind time
I'd just leave it all vacant
And traveled crossroads in my life
Would now exist adjacent"

There are so many things in my life that I just wish I could go back and change.
Everyone makes mistakes in their lives....and we do things that we may not be proud of...but we shouldn't let those things define who we are. So, breathe my friend. Life is hard...but thats how you know you're living.

~Ice

[visions of doom]

a very powerful write my friend , you held nothing back and gave of yourself . fighting with what you are perceived to be and striving for peace within yourself and being accepted for who you would wish to be is an admirable struggle and though the light may seem dim sometimes . it is achievable if you want it bad enough . love conquers all , with that in your heart , all becomes possible .

[Melissa Kesead]

Was this intended as a spoken word poem because it flowed that way and had a lot of power in it. Wonderful piece!

[Brittany]

Ahhh... the shaken faith of a man torn between lust and practicality. This piece was an in depth view of that drowning pleasure we know we must escape but damn it anyways we keep diving in for one more swim. Freedom from sin, it's a lovely theme to this piece and you delivered it with a gut-wrenching flair.

[Morning Bliss]

I found it a little confusing, but I loved the deeper meaning behind it. How we all make mistakes that we're sometimes to ashamed of, and how its best to ask for forgivness and forget. Or I could totally have it wrong.
But anways, wonderful! :)

[lost inside]

NOw this write is really mazing
says exactly how you feel
Like this alot.