Christmas EveA Story by Ian FarawayThis story is based on the poem I wrote "The Dream That Never Was"... it's a little different outcome
I
sat in the driver’s seat of my small car in an empty parking lot
facing the town Christmas Tree with its colored lights shining the
best it could through the snowfall. Hands were on the wheel, every
muscle in my body tense. It was early in the morning, and the snow
had been falling for what seemed like hours now. The ground was
covered, and the town seemed almost abandoned. Almost like they were
waiting for the roads to clear. I was stuck there because my house
was on top of a hill which my small car could not climb in these
conditions. I should've been furious but I found myself distracted.
I looked at the folded piece of paper in my hand and sighed, putting it deep into my pocket. Slowly, I got out of the car and made my way through the foot of snow towards the tree. A few feet away from the tree was a gazebo with its rail lit like the lights hugging the Christmas tree in front of it, almost like it was welcoming me to take shelter. I took the bait, sat down on the stone steps and laid my arms across my knees. I stared absentmindedly at the ground, before I closed my eyes to the touch of a snowflake on the back of my neck. My mind started drifting to everything that was worrying me. As I was going down the list of troubles, my heart started to race against my chest causing me to feel restless. I slowly made circles around the Christmas tree, whispering my troubles to the tree. “Ian?” I heard a voice say. I turned to see who called my name. No one was there. “Ian.” A soft voice spoke from around the tree. I ran around the tree to see who called my name but no one was there. “What’s wrong, Ian?” It asked from around the tree again. I took a step back and took a deep breath. Silently, I rubbed my head thinking it was all in my head. “Ian.” This voice was close by and I turned my head towards the gazebo. There, standing on the steps, was the last person I wanted to see. The one I loved. “Sarah?” I squinted my eyes slightly to make sure I was actually seeing who I thought I was. “Hello, Ian.” She gave me an almost tired smile. “What are you doing here, Sarah?” I didn't mean to make it sound like I was repulsed to see her, because I wanted to hold her when I saw her. But the shock of seeing her threw me off. “Well,” she looked down at her black high heels, and for a moment all I saw was her long brown hair.” I wanted to talk to you about the present you gave me.” She finally looked up, and I could see that she was holding a piece of paper in her hand. I padded my pockets to see if the letter was still in there. It wasn't. I walked up the steps past her, trying my best not to look at her or the paper. ”All right. What is it?” My head started racing again and walking wasn't helping. I leaned against the rail on the far side of the gazebo across from her. She stood still on the top step fidgeting with her hands, her eyes following me as I moved. ”I wanted to thank you for the recipe journal, it was really sweet of you. But I wanted to talk about the letter you left in the Christmas card.” It was my turn to look at her. She stared back with a sort of fragile back briefly and then started pacing around the gazebo as I stood silently in the middle. “What about it?” I asked softly, trying not to panic. “Well, it was touching.” She went silent and stared at her feet again. I noticed that she bit her bottom lip and I felt hot. She always did that when she was deep in thought. The only thing lighted was the Christmas tree and the lighting on the rails. Everything else was pitch black. “In the letter you said you were afraid to fall deeper into this relationship. Why?” She asked suddenly. There was a part of the letter about how I was scared to death to touch her or even be near her, because I didn't want to fall deeper in love than I already had. If that was even possible. “Well… I’m trying to get rid of this feeling, Sarah, not encourage it. I think we both know where I’ll end up if we continue this.” I mumbled. “But why?” she asked. “Because I can't keep up with all these emotions I'm feeling towards you. It's complicated. It's new. And I don't even know how you feel about me.” It was frustrating that I was struggling to find the right words to express how I felt. So it wasn't surprising to me that she was having a hard time figuring it out because I was, too. ”It's like every time we hang out, all you really want is to hear me complain about my own problems and crisis.” I was having a hard time holding in a tear.” I want to know how you feel, what your thoughts are. I think it’s why I tried stepping away from our friendship, and why I try to ignore you. It’s because I’m unsure about your feelings.” “Oh, Ian,” was all she said. She slowly approached me in the middle of the gazebo and wrapped her arms around me neck. One second, I was angry, next my lips were locked with her’s. Time froze, snow stopped in the air. The world that I wanted to wash away so badly simply faded in the background. All my troubles and problems that laid on my shoulders were seemed to melt in the heart of that kiss. Our lips parted and she gently touched my cheek. We spent what seemed like forever just staring, silently into each others eyes. Just looking into her eyes, I could see all the words she wanted to say to me and I knew the answers to all the questions I was obsessing over for the longest time. ”Merry Christmas, Ian. Hopefully I'll see you later tonight and I'll tell you everything.” She touched my chest and took a step back before turning and vanishing into the snowfall. I backed up slowly and leaned against one of the rails of the gazebo. I gently touched my lips with my trembling hands and smiled to myself. All my doubts about her melted in the heat of that kiss. I closed my eyes. “Ian? Ian!” I heard another voice calling in the distance. My eyes remained closed as it spoke softly. I tried my best to ignore it. I just wanted to stay there and relive that kiss in my head for the rest of the day, until I saw her again. “Ian, wake up!” My eyes shot open and I realized, after a groggy second, that I was lying down on my bed in my room. I looked around to find my baby niece bouncing up and down with the help of two hands. A head appeared behind her. “Morning, Bro. Annabelle was just so excited for her first Christmas that she wanted to come wake you up.” It was my brother, Derek. I looked groggily at Annabelle who wore a confused expression on her face. She looked at me as if to tell me “just get up, maybe he’ll stop bouncing me around.” After a good morning kiss to Annabelle and a few jokes with my brother, they left the room. I sat on the edge of my bed with my eyes shut. D****t, it was a dream. I gently punched myself in the head and got up. I walked over to my desk where the calendar and cell phone laid. I saw that it was Christmas Eve and made a face. I looked over toward my door and listened to make sure they were not in ear shot. I shook my head slowly and then clicked the 'OK' button on my phone and saw I had a text. I flipped open my phone and didn't recognize the number. I clicked 'OK' to read to message and it read: "Meet me by the gazebo before the candle - lighting tonight. --Sarah" I gently placed the phone down and looked out the window towards the snowfall and felt a warmth inside of me. Maybe it could be more than a dream. Maybe there was a slim chance that the dream I missed already, would become reality. As I looked away from the snowfall, I heard Sarah's voice in the back of my head softly echoing "Why are you afraid to fall deeper?" I sat down slowly and looked at the ground. For a minute, I was silent, pondering about how to answer that question. I looked around me hoping to find an answer is somewhere in my room. There were none. That was when I remembered the letter I had in my dream. I grabbed the Christmas card that I had picked out to give her from earlier in the week and sat it down next to me at my desk. I opened the envelope that was on top and decided to reread it. It reads as follows: I put down the letter and sighed. I didn't remember writing it so harshly but every word was true. It felt like my heart strings are always being pulled in every which direction when I'm around her. I put the letter to the side and picked up a pen to write my final and last poem to her: Things were so much simpler when I was dreaming of everything coming together and kissing her lips. Now it just felt like it was on the fast train in the opposite direction but I didn't really have much choice. All I could do was cross my fingers and do my best to in one last attempt to keep my sanity and her. © 2014 Ian FarawayAuthor's Note
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