I Can't Let Them

All these friends around me

The love and the joy I try to give

But none will see the pain in my eyes

For I trust no one, not even my friends

Of the troubles that disagree

With past mistakes that won't forgive

Eating at me till I meet my demise

When all the grief and sadness ends

I want to speak up, I do

But the words fail to come out

As if I know that it's no use

To let someone see the ugly inside

It's like no one has a clue

 I'm filled with emptiness and doubt

That leaves a emotional bruise

I can't let them see my dark, hurt side

See, I've let them in before

Showed the scars of my past

And let my fragile heart be held 

Only to have it break like glass in their hand

Fell through their fingers and scattered on the floor

"Show some love to this broken soul," was all I asked

But I let my shattered heart become shelled

So no one will see the pain, let alone understand

If a woman should ever see the pain

Then may God have mercy on her poor soul

And myself for allowing myself to trust and love again

And if she tries to fix me, then she's just a fool

Who will try and surely go insane

Trying to fit the pieces and make a perfect whole

Make me that which I'm too scared to obtain

Happiness that will surely be cruel

Reviews

[MsJewel]

Happiness that will surely be cruel - I love the entire poem, but this line really stood out for me. To be afraid of happiness, to hide behind a smile and not be able to let anyone see the real person...it's just so sad to me. I could feel the emotion in your words. You are very talented.

:) Julie

[Ian Faraway]

You are too kind, Julie. I know some, if not most, of my pieces aren't exactly upbeat and romantic as yours and I appreciate you taking a step out of it to read mine. If you should ever dig back deep enough into my archives where some of those love poems are, let me know how they are. :) -Faraway-

[MsJewel]

I definitely will!

[SquinklaPsyOps]

Extremely good choice of topic and theme. If painters worked for years, they could not create a work of art as beautiful as this one.

[Ian Faraway]

Your comment made me speechless. Ha.