Pessimistic About This

It's so loud inside of my head
As I run through what we are and can be
When I lay down on my cold bed
Everyone's doubts and logic clouds my hopes
"It's not pessimistic, it's just realistic" They said
I don't know, maybe they had a point
Maybe I'll get a broken and bruised heart instead
When you leave and find someone better
All I really know is that you make my face all red
And it feels like this is all a dream
Or an intense fairy tale I never read

I'm still wondering what you see in me
When you can have any guy your heart desires
Maybe one like me just more sexy
And knows what the hell he's doing
Making your heart flip and flop with glee
So pretty much anyone other than me
Because you're just too good to be true, see?
All I dream of is holding you and making you laugh
While watching a sunset underneath a cherry tree
All I know is that you make me want to be better
But that would mean setting my protected heart free

What goes through your beautiful mind?
Do you see the love you want in me
By the heart where your name might be signed?
Because if you do, you already know how I feel
Or maybe you don't because words are hard to find
If you have the potential to love me as I do you
Then I will wait and work for our paths to be combined
I think these are the words I can't say aloud
Since you're special to me and one of a kind
And I'm a "realist" and you're not mine
I just don't want to be left behind

Reviews

[shallimarRose]

Another beautiful Poem Ian... A few lines really stuck out in my mind..
"Everyone's doubts and logic clouds my hopes"...
"it feels like this is all a dream
Or an intense fairy tale I never read"...
I think your poems get better each time.. xo Rose

[Ian Faraway]

I've been writing way too much lately. This girl is all up in my head. Haha. Thank you for the read and review! -Ian

[shallimarRose]

I can see that she is Ian but you are writing from your heart. Whether she will allow you into her world or not she has awoken your muse in a very nice way.. xoxo

[Ian Faraway]

She's allowed me so far. But we're testing each other to see if we can handle a long distance relationship for the time being.