A Holy Kind of Hell

A piece about Anorexia and how it can be seen, by those struggling with it, as a good and comforting thing.

With endless promises of beauty and of peace

And ways to make the number on the scale decrease

A ghostly saint then appears, extending her soft hand

Offering a shield of protection and a heart that understands

Ana has this voice, it's so holy and light

She takes my hand and guides me through cold, dark nights

As the number keeps falling, her praises of glory get louder

I strive to please her only, as she fills me with power

I'm a daughter of Ana's, devout, I stay true

 

Abiding by her rules and repenting for my sins

The hard work begins to show as the body starts to thin

High from starvation, an addiction has surely grown

As the skin becomes transparent, now a longing ache to see bone

A purpose she gave me and reasons for a new day

I hold her tight in our embrace and promise to always obey

As she walks me through hell, I will follow her lead

She is my angel of want and my devil of need

So pure in her ways and faultless to the grave

A broken soul in darkness, she shined her light and she saved

With tender arms that hold me always, I will never be alone

A mother of love and comfort forever, Ana has become my home

Reviews

[Ufi Auttorri ~ Amy C. T..]

Hmm, I'm not sure if I should punish or praise this pour soul. The message is hidden deeply; perhaps too deeply for me to grasp the truth of it. Is this about a weight-loss regimen? Well-written either way.

[Whitney Kleinhuizen]

It's about battling an eating disorder, specifically Anorexia (aka 'Ana') and how a destructive disease can be seen not just as bad/evil but to the one in the struggle, the ways it can seem good and comforting to them as well, serving multiple purposes.
And thank you for the review :)

[Ufi Auttorri ~ Amy C. T. Serrat]

Oh gosh! Thank you for that explanation. Sorry to be so dense.

[Whitney Kleinhuizen]

No worries, glad I could clear up any confusion!

[That_Guy]

"As she walks me through hell, I will follow her lead
She is my angel of want and my devil of need"

great line

[Whitney Kleinhuizen]

Thanks :)

[That_Guy]

I look forward to your next piece

[Whitney Kleinhuizen]

Well thank you! Hopefully I've finally broken through from these last few days of a writing block.

[That_Guy]

I know how you feel, I haven't written anything in a while.

[Whitney Kleinhuizen]

Yeah, it's frustrating isn't it? Well I hope you find some sort of inspiration and continue with some new pieces soon :)

[That_Guy]

if I finish my song I'll put it up next

[Whitney Kleinhuizen]

I look forward to reading it.

[That_Guy]

thank you :)