The day I diedA Poem by Deadline Jeffrey
The day that I died
Was the day I died inside I died in Texas that day You got what you wanted You got the husband the baby, the dog All things we talked about with such passion and want I did not know that you were cutting pieces of me off to make yourself whole Amid the laughter and joy was sorrow brewing. You have the sharpest tongue I have ever known Like bees to honey I was drawn to you Those words hurt worse than anything I could have imagined I came for the honey and got your stinger instead You built me up to watch me fall Collecting my pieces for your collection To fill the voids inside you But you never asked I watched you blossom You were radiant One call is all it took. One sentence. The false tears. The lies. Acting the victim. He didn't push you into your bed, you pushed him. Its easy to say its for the best When you wanted more while you leave me with less Something you had to do, you said Had to know where it would go 20 years. 20 F*****g years. Down the drain like S**t. To go form such love to fiery hate I lay awake broken, while you sleep so soundly While you dream of things so joyful I am haunted by the ghost of you I see your face everywhere Everything reminds me of you I cant help but wonder if I cross your mind from time to time I wonder if you regret what you did I wonder if you feel any guilt I hope so But the worst The absolute worst I wonder if you're happy I wonder if you're content Those thoughts hurt the worst of all Despite everything Despite the hurt, the betrayal, the lies, the false tears The fact I still care hurts the worst of all Everyday I die a little more inside I owe it all to you Those pieces I will never get back Those pieces that would make me whole Are no longer mine I will forever hate you for stealing from me Stealing my love Stealing my care Stealing my joy All I can say is F**k you F**k you for using me like that F**k you for asking me to try and understand F**k you for lying to me F**k you for ruining our friendship of 20 years F**k you for using the name we picked for your son F**k you for throwing me away after you were fine F**k you for the false tears trying to get me to stay F**k you for expecting me to be a backup in case it did not work out F**k you for not even being slightly remorseful F**k you for the manipulation But most of all F**k you for ever saying you loved me Front Porch Step said it best, How dare you say you miss me with your spit still on his tongue I cannot forgive you But I miss you I miss who you used to be I guess in a way That was the day you died too.
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1 Review Added on June 8, 2022 Last Updated on June 9, 2022 AuthorDeadline JeffreyOHAbout23 Year old Soldier, grew up writing, used it as an outlet. I guess its time others get to see my musings of years past. Questions, comments, concerns? Let me know! Thanks for taking a look! more..Writing
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