What I Truly Want

Money can not buy happness, nor can it buy forgiveness.

You ask me what I want,
But do you truly listen? 
I think not, 
For you still hurt me.

You try bribing me,
With new boots, and money.
Don't you see!
That's not what I want.

I want you to end this.
NOW!
I don't want your money,
Clothes and boots cant buy my love.
Yes a new pair of boots will make me happy,
But how long will that last? 
An hour? Maybe two?
Until you do something to rip open the wounds.



What I really want...

•Stop drinking.
It hurts me more than you.

•Go see a shrink!
If I have to see one,
For something you are doing.
(that has nothing to do with me!)
You sure as hell better be seeing one too.
To put me through the hell of talking,
About something that pains me so,
You would think you would do the same.

But no, you go along your marry way,
Forgetting that you need to let it out.
You need to let it out more than I,
What with you hurting the three of us.
Using our emotions,
For your twisted amusement.

Is that not reason enough?
To go talk to a shrink.
You find joy in leading us on,
Then dropping us like flies.

•Stop trying to buy my affection,
It will only make things worse.
For you and I both.
I do not want to end up like sandy and cocoa
With their fucked up relationship.
Or like you,
Not letting anyone in,
Even when you're hurting most.

Author's Note

She keeps asking me what I want but she never listens to what my heart wants.
I tell her that I want her to atleast try to fix this but apparently alcohol is more important than her own daughter; her only child comes second to her addiction. How does that make me feel you ask? Like I'm worthless and not good enough to deserve any kind of love...

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

"But no, you go along your marry way,
Forgetting that you need to let it out. "
I like the story in this poem. I like the direct and honest words. Logic in life will get you to a good place. A person lost in booze and mind ain't right. Will be big trouble in the end. Thank you for the outstanding poem.
Coyote