Bewildered ( Knew it )

Just something I wrote. I'm not at my best, and it might Bewildered you.

I looked at myself in the mirror, my eyes full of wary ment for me.
I don't feel, like I'm worth it. I'm no prize, I'm the last item you get for trying.

A head rush hits me, and I sway. I allowed myself to fall, but he usally was there to catch me.
It echoed as I fell, hard against the bathroom sink, than the floor. I layed quietly, and cringed in pain.

The tears rolled down my face, as I sobbed into the white fur carpet. He needs to come back, where is he? I'm so lost. There's nothing left, but the darkness. It's lavander now, and it's beautiful, swirling and lingering it's way by. Where am I? It's thudding, like a heartbeat.

It stopped.

The darkness zoomed in, and now it's a battle. The lavander is fighting, but it's going away.

Gone.

Red flew in next, trying to defeat the pitch-blackness. The red was crimson red, the tint of blood. I could smell the salt-rust smell of it. I cringed, but I couldn't see anything but the two colours collide.
Blood washes away.
Dissolved. It was black again, and I could hear the hatred.
I was withering, and it wouldn't be long for the numbness to completely consume me. This, I could feel.
Blue came to play, as it splashed itself against the darkness, and the darkness fought.

It was fighting, and it was loosing. And the blue wisked it away, and it was just me and the deep blue.
Stained a bit, from the black. It was royal blue now, but it was quite amazing. 
Something shone through, and the light smacked into the blue, knocking it completely off guard.
The blue was fading, but green came raging. It bolted through, and past the blue. It headed straight for the light, and crush it with everything it got.

I gust of air, I felt it, I did. And I swore of it, the green gave me air. 
I could hear somehting, in the vagure distance, where is the voice. It was smooth, like velvet. It was so sweet, and amazing, I knew who it was. 
The moment I knew, "_____! _____, Oh love, come back. I love you. Don't... you can't, how did I let this happen!? _____!?!?"
The panik grew, and I was Bewildered. The cold touch to my lips, and I breathed. It was right, and I knew it. It was my only love, and I knew it. And I opened my eyes, to find his beautiful face, looking into mine with such panic, and relief. He sobbed, and I sat up slow, and the headrush came again. He caught me, with fury in his eyes. "Why did I leave your side? I'm so sorry, I love you, my love. I'm so sorry." 
"Shhh" I whispered, as he brought my face closer to his, I kissed his smooth, cold lips. And it was electric, and it felt so real.
The blackness was me knocked out. The lavander was the love, the red was my blood that shed down to the floor. Soaking, everything. Blue was the water, to regain my awakeness.
And the green was the kiss, and the shock of it. 
I knew it, from that moment on. It was to strong, and we both knew it. It was ment to be after all, it was.