Tragedy

I cant stop thinking
I cant stop sinking
The dreams still haunt me
Your voice still taunts me
I cant silence the tortured screams
I cant sleep through the darkened dreams
I wake each night
My mind turned full of fright
I scream and shake
My heart pounds enough to cause earthquakes
I curl up and bawl
Just its still for you i fall
I cant make it stop
I cant make it back on top
I'm trying, im fighting
To fix the broken lighting
Flickering behind my eyes
That only stay lit by hopeful lies
Yet still, I hope you smile
I hope your happiness goes for miles
Even though my darker side
Hopes for you to take a dive
I myself hope and have pride
That you are following yourself and your own drive


Note:
I love you. Im sorry for everything I did. I hope you are staying happy, I hope you are doing everything you want. I hope you don't worry about me. I hope you stay you.