Fear

I had to spill

I had to speak

The weird dream, the sudden action

The silence and the panicked reaction

They swirled in my mind

They made me sick

She came to me a nervous wreck

She told of things you chose

Your silence then felt like total sense

Still a part of me says no

This isn't what truly goes

There's something else

It's just you being you

I swore to allow it

Allow you to do as you need

But I broke

She scared me

Doubt clouded my mind once more

Every thing she said just dug and bore

Into my mind, into my soul

I started to crack

I started to break

I felt my breathing start to die

I felt my stomach turn to knots

My mind began to spin

The demons once more to win

Yet still that voice in my head

He said something different

Something far from what she sees

I have to trust him

But why does this information break me

Why did this update break me down

Would he really lie?

Am I just being kept on the hook?

Meeting too soon?

Was it just a line from a book?

I don't understand

I'm scared and alone

She left me behind

Angered by my panic

Hurt by my words

All I sought were hers

I needed to know her thoughts

I needed to know her guidance

But lets be real...

I'd follow you regardless

That's how everyone feels

Shatter me to a million

I'll still limp behind you

I don't know why I trust you

Something about you feels right

But is it possible it's all a lie?

Would tell me?

Would you lay out bare honesty?

Do I stay hooked for no true reason?

I don't want that to be the case

I want to know my initial reaction rang true

I need to hear that she worried for nothing

I need to know I'm not in some savage game

How many lies have you spoken?

Is there really a flame there for me?

Did you really care for the things I said?

I don't understand

I can't stop the shaking in my hands

I'm sorry I spoke

I'm sorry I broke

I only want for one thing

I only wish for one dream

Not even to have and to hold you

But to know my trust is right and true

If only I already knew...

I still love you

But is that the right thing to do?