Confused

I don't understand what's going on
I don't understand how to react
One second no contact
The next you're there again
Every fiber of my being screams
Telling me to chase you
Telling me to jump into your arms
My mind remains logical
That's not what he wants
Stay on your leash and behave
And I do, I stay and whimper
Begging to run and be close
But I don't understand
Why are you back?
What happened?
Are you ok?
I want to be there
I want to be at your side
This gravitational pull drives me crazy
Yet I've been asked to fight it
Through shaking limbs and panicked breaths
I try hard to do as I am asked
So why did you come back...
I can't help it anymore
Daddy I miss you...