Holding back

Possible alternative name: Grow the hell up lmao

I'm still watching my phone
I'm still waiting for your call
Like a loyal dog sitting at the door
Waiting for eons for its owner to return
I'm keeping my head up
I'm trying to move forward
I'm trying to focus on me
Yet every second, every moment, every day
I'm thinking of you and it won't go away
So many things I want to say
But I'm holding tight to keep myself at bay
I love you, I miss you, I need you to stay
But girl life doesn't work that way
Just because you ask doesnt mean life will obey
This isn't some movie you can just will to play
This isn't some fairy tale where everythings magically okay
This is the real world
Where every day has a struggle
Every moment you must make decisions
Grow the hell up and get to business
Dont like where you're at then shut up and fix it
Remember your self respect kid
It's time to leave the shadows where you hid
Stand up and stand tall
Tilt your face to the sky and answer your own call
Kick some a*s, take some names
Make your legacy burn like flames
I gave you the pep talk now get up and go
Get out there and give those people a show
Get out of your head
The fantasy is dead
We are together a force to behold
An entity both fierce and bold
Yet I still feel I need you
I still feel alone without you
But...
She's right
So now it's time to grow