Late Night Thoughts

Is it early or is it late?
I can hear sleep calling yet can't take the bait
My mind still racing and traveling
My heart trying to keep from unraveling
Your words still in my ears ring true
I really do not understand you
Sometimes I feel your emotions from where I sit
Others I can't feel you even a bit
Is it me?
Am I not trying hard enough to see?
Usually being near you I feel it most
That soaring heart that I want to boast
Yet recently I feel it fleeting
What is it that receding?
I'm trying everything I can think
Gliding carefully across this icy rink
I search hard for the warmth in your eyes
Yet somedays I feel that you don't hear my cries
Do you see that I'm trying?
Do you see the path I'm occupying?
I'm chasing after you, trying to keep up
Seeming like nothing more than your little leashed pup
Will you look back?
You move so fast, will I lose track?
I have to move faster
These tired limbs could cause disaster
One wrong step I'd stumble and fall
The roots of these trees covering all
But I must pick up my pace
I must keep up my chase
I must ignore the thought in my head
Telling me that all those dreams are dead
Long gone and buried deep
Lost away where no one can see
It has to be wrong
I knows it's been long
But there has to be a way
For us to have our day
So why does every fiber of my being scream
Tearing apart my hopes at the seam
Then it happens, I stumble and crash
My ankle caught from movements so rash
I look up and search for you
Needing help but losing view
Where did you go?
Is that the cawing of a hungry crow?
Will you come back?
My panic is making me lose track
My head is twirling, the world is spinning
I can't bear the thought of another winning
You are the love of my life
I dream of being your wife
Yet every day that dream hazes
As I'm left figuring out these mazes
I need you help
Yet it seems like just a silent yelp
An unheard plea
Like being lost at sea
Will you be there?
Will I only just tear?
I miss you...