Emotional

Awake at night
Exhausted but restless
With a heart full of fright
Thoughts of losing you and being loveless
They wont stop racing
Leaving my mind pacing
After you i'm always chasing
But I fear it's another path you're facing
Psychology holds a simple law
Fight or flight, bare your teeth or turn your paw
My mind screams to run off
Yet still to your feet I crawl
You own my heart, my mind, and soul
Yet every day I feel you fold
I hear you step away and turn your back
With every one a feel another crack
Spreading across my heart
The glue you set to make it whole
Crumbling and falling apart
Part of me wants to turn cold
The fear makes me want to cut ties
The screams say I need to flee
Everything I see is you leaving me
The flashbacks from past mistakes
Taking shape and showing your face
This can't be real, you haven't hurt me
You're my home, my solace, my sanctuary
I have to ignore it, I have to press on
So why does this weigh down like a ton
Why does my heart trust the words less and less
Why do I feel like I'm fighting for someone who's just leaving me behind
No, it can't be
It's not true
I need to stop
I need to breathe
I love you
You love me
I know it
I feel it
Don't I?
I don't understand
Why can't I stop doubting
Why can't I stop crying
Why can't I stop seeing you being like them
You're not them
I wish you'd help me
I feel so lost
And yet im so afraid to approach
I'm sorry daddy..