Secret Love

those who just pass by and let you go for your life and for the best to her but not with you. not easy but what can be done!

 

 

The Secret Love

 

This is the story about my life; I don’t give any damn if you think I am idiot. I only tell story, this come from the pure inner voice.

This is about my “Love” story; dedicated to you the lover and those who suspect this is important, but I don’t sure it’s a love story.

            I saw a girl and she looked at me, interest in her personality and so did she. We tried to talk each other just in attempting to know more about us while smiling together which were sometimes with no reason and just to warmth the rigidity of temperature in each of our body coming out and the atmosphere surrounding got influenced.

Hmmm…I guessed I liked her, and just guessing she did like me either. However I didn’t know it/ never new it, I would never asked her about it personally

 

Unfortunately, another man came to put himself` between us, He told me that he had a special taste he felt in his heart (I was not sure the words “In His Heart”) of course I nodded and response “Go and get her” I didn’t tell you right? I’d never show this feeling, he didn’t know I liked the girl, and only telling you  this is me but you don’t need to question me, Why? Hey you don’t know right, the guy was my close friend

Let me go on, he planned some precise plans; my habit was calming down and no need to show up. He got closer at her and you know I preferred silent.

Let’s see,

the girl got confused, she came to me taking some good ideas how to have the best way and later would not be a regret happening.( why you asked me that question, girl? it’s ridiculous. I was one of the competitors to get you at least I have reason to get you and be mine. I thought) as usual I answer her short and wise, “your heart will make it up, the only thing you may or might do now is to walk it on and you are going to find the answer itself after you understand it”. I know (may be) she had greater feeling toward me instead of the guy. May be now you think I am an idiot when this time didn’t give a significant response or may be you will forget the rule on purpose deliver spontaneous question “why”?

 

At the end of the dilemma, she preferred the guy. She told me and I conveyed her congratulation and show her how happy I was at the moment, stated a very good words I could make telling her this is the best way for her choices that had troublesome her in few days

They’d been together with rejoices but the end was a bitterness for her….who suspected that guy didn’t really loved her? He left her …satisfied… let the beautiful flower being brokenhearted, alone. She came toward me, pouring out all the regret about this case, “I was wrong” she aid”I don’t know what should I do now, I am totally powerless.”

 

I her head laid down on my shoulder/hitting my chest and hug her while she cried hysterically, strived making her being calm. I asked her “as a friend let me help you out of your problem, tell me what should I do to make you happy again”

But her response  was totally shocking me! slowly she spoke up” I know this is my fault, please forgive me, I was wrong’s valued you, and from the deepest I am asking you, take me to your heart and come with me, I really need you( you might think some of you people, it’s a glory and the prove of the real love and other will say, oh, what an absurd! you want to come with her? in moment like this? oh come on this is not fair, she don’t love you, stop her before late or this will make you be in great regret)

But I said ’Let’s walk it on”

 

Day succeeded day, I felt my burden on my shoulder day after day getting heavier from the day I decided. Because now I took mockeries from the other by saying “oh..oh.. Look this man, what a pity, he just being able having girl that’s been owned and thrown by other man when he didn’t need her any more, before him” more or less the meaning is, I own a second hand girl. What an insane they are, I thought, they don’t know how true and tender the feeling I have in my inner heart choosing this way and just considered me a stupid , you don’t understand, you are the s**t!

On the other said I mused “what’s going on here, why they taking too much care of my business and what a bullshit things they have done!”

 

Don’t they know? This is one of my glory missions. Don’t they know? If I wish I could get the “greater” one and being proud of it to show to anybody? But they only my purpose is, I will tell them later.

 

Now my day on high enthusiastic and this is the good time to make her better, I thought.

Truly, I do this only for her not for me, I wanted to help her to recover from her pain to live better next which absolutely apart from the cloudy of past trauma.

I went to try to make her understand all about this and taught her to take it as a very important moment in her life and to start to receive it and attempted seeing the positive side that will be useful to make her wiser and learned one thing “ look it clearly and think it in perspective before you made it up, not only follow the uncertain feeling, also to put in mind and heart that this is life which is  the real life where you will pass the plain, mountainous, valley, dessert, cold and burned hot day where when she can pass it well and patient then the shade will she find.

I was totally aware why I did this all, this all happen because I “love” her, the only thing doubt me was what kind of love is it?

 

She’d been changed a lot since there and she was stronger than used to.

to make her happy in her life time is my desire, I’ll do everything I could for her.

 

But later, after everything in her recovered and she’d ready to go on for her journey of life again with a high self esteem. my duty was done. now she would leave me or I would leave her again. I was ready to go man, this is the time, she had to go from my life or I would. Now I had to, because she didn’t need me again even she wanted me to stay with her. No, this is the decision; I would go from her life, leaving her to choose the best way for her life again.

I confessed it was for me, for her either (maybe). And special for them the “Other” for sure, knowing this just completely dazing them, when they saw my behavior.

But I had to go, this is the best for her and for me also (I thought) to see her in true glad and to feel a tender smile on my face again.

 

Now I have gone where in my mind I have my own life and she has too.

This is what I mean and I wanted to tell you from the beginning

“Love Inside the heart” where the love just in my soul and no need to say to her to be mine.

that is secret love ,pure as the flowing down water from the mountain in summer time, to a place where there is the place for it to stay a moment and go on, which it clean and fresh where  you can feel it in your skin and refresh your body when you pass, where it’s will heal your thirst  and you feel alive again from a very long journey and you stop over where later you go on, because you are wanderer, you come to pass and go on and the flowing water either, flowing and keeping flow to the places wherever it will reach the destination.

 

That is secret love where you just want to give because you love it, willingly just give, such as the light on the sky. it give you light and warm, where it lighten the way for people and warmth them intimately, which  it just give you, burning itself just for you.

 

now you know man and I hope you can understand the reason why I did it, ya I tried to do “The Secret Love” because what I trust I try to do where I trust for the real and tender love because  love is pure and holly, love just want to give wholeheartedly and gladly with no terms.

 

This is my way, this is what can I do and this is what I really mean “The Power of Secret Love”.

 

 

Reviews

[Tina Kline]

A very interesting tale and I conclude at the end perhaps what you were not feeling for her was physical love but love doesn't just have to be physical, that can just as likely be lust. But you did love her and helped her the best you could and you can feel very proud and good that you did so and didn't take advantage of her in her 'rebound' situation.

[Vitcky Walker]

not good enough, need some more