Paradise Ep 40

Paradise Ep. 40 (Day 4 Going The Distance)

Nick: *I woke up this morning at 12 PM, wow I didn't know I could sleep so much. I shyly smiled at Kris who was still sleeping away. I didn't want to wake him, so I went through my routine of going to the bathroom, getting dressed & making breakfast/eating. After that I went for a walk outside. It was bright & beautiful as ever. Its always beautiful here, the feeling here is so warm & peaceful. I continued to walk along the beach, when I came across a lagoon that was so crystal clear & shallow. I walked into the water, so warm, never ever cold. I could see tiny silver fish swimming past my legs in a group. They seemed to be swarmed around me. I giggled, they were so cute. Then I decided to dive in, I swam happily around in the water for a long time. Finally I floated to the top of the water, just relaxing & looking up at the sky. I love it here, it makes me happy. I wish ... though I could remember everything. Everytime I try to recall anything from my past ... all I get it a blank empty slate. What Kris told me so far & talking to my brother Joe, is all I have right now. I still can't wait to meet Joe, I wonder what he looks like. Kris said I have 2 more brothers, Kevin who's married & little Frankie. So I guess Joe is in the middle & I'm the 2nd youngest. I can't believe I'm a successful musician. From what I gather, I'm living the dream & everything is just amazing. I got to make a confession though ... my memory loss does scare me the most, but something else worries me more. I trust Kris, but something especially about last night. They way he was looking at me, how he had his face in his hands, & then how he touched me like that. I'm still completely shocked. And at the time I was so nervous, his hands doing that to me really made me dizzy & vulnerable. I let him touch me, kiss me, & he's the only person here, which is sort of weird. I just wonder if were really a couple. I have no doubt that he cares for me, but he's just so older than me & intense. His emotions & his touch, its all confusing to me. I blushed at the recap. Should have let him do that do me? I don't know ... it just seems that something isn't right. He says were a new couple, yet how Kris acts ... it almost feels ... like I belong to him? I shook my head. I'm not a possession, I'm a human being. Does Kris belong to me? It seems like he wants it that way. I honestly don't know. If only I could remember just something ... anything. I feel so lost*

???: *Maybe I can help?*

Nick: *Jumps up & winds gasping for air from sinking in the shallow water/coughs & looks around* Who said that? Kris? *I don't see him around, just a baby dolphin. Oh my gosh! A baby dolphin, how cute!* Oh my ... hello there. Are you the 1 who startled me?

???: *Yes sorry about that. I guess I should have thought this out better. My name is Emmi. Its nice to meet you Nick Jonas*

Nick: *Mouth drops/gasps quietly* Y-y-you talk?!

Emmi: *Yep I do. If I may, I can explain everything. You might want to start using your thoughts to talk to me though, cause else it looks funny*

Nick: *Rubs my eyes/blinks. I guess I have no choice. This is so weird! What's going on? Am I in a dream?*

Emmi: *Not a dream Nick, this is reality. Its okay, I know this is different. That's why I'm here to tell you I'm a friend to you & your brother Joe. This is our official meeting though. I can help answer some of your questions you have, like about your memory loss*

Nick: *Gasps. Please tell me Emmi. I'm so confused*

Emmi: *Sssh Nick, it'll all become clear I promise. *winks/begins to explain about Nick's gift & about how some people have a gift too*

Nick: *Listens to Emmi*

Emmi: *You see you have met Ari my sister (all together 26 sisters), & she's been looking out for you. She sent me here to calm you about your memory loss. Nick if you truly want answers, listen to your music your brothers & you did, & of course your new solo CD, then look at pictures of yourself & your brothers. Oh & watch a few vids of you all together, & you'll for sure find what your looking for*

Nick: *But how? I don't go back to meet Joe for another day or so*

Emmi: *Nick don't be alarmed, but I'm going to show you. Extends right & left flipper to him. Take my fins Nick & you'll see*

Nick: *Hesitantly grabs Emmi's flippers*

Emmi: *Okay Nick, you were suppose to be found out on your own, but Ari said to use this in case. So what I'm about to show is some important moments in your past. Here we go!*

Nick: *That very moment it was like being thrown into a spinning magical field, memories were flashing before my eyes. All these wonderful, cherished moments that I've been through. I saw my brothers, my parents, my family, my friends, millions of screaming fans cheering. The feeling was overwhelming, yet it left me feeling so happy. All these moments were so precious, so memorable, I couldn't help but smile, gasp, & cry all at the same time. Then I began to see all these moments with my middle brother Joe, every clip of him was of him hugging me. It made be blush & my heart was beating rapidly. I felt warm, loved, but ... somehow it felt so much more than that. I had a few moments with Kevin & Frankie & my parents, but somehow it wasn't the same as ... what Joe made me feel. I was weeping now, trying to wipe my tears away, but they kept coming. There's something that is tugging at my heart ... this is becoming familiar. This combined with all our songs playing, each one of them special & apart me. I saw my childhood, my career start, everything I saw how nothing but my brothers always with me & my family. Not once did I see Kris in any parts of my past. As far as I was concerned, I was thinking only of one person. Joe. He was the happiest next to me, when my diabetes was cured. Everytime he looked at me made my cheeks further warm. What is this feeling? He's always so close to me, on stage, whatever we go ... were inseparable*

Emmi: *Thinking (Nick can't hear this part): He's beginning to see his past. One condition Ari made perfectly clear, was not to let him see his memories of being with Joe romantically, which have all taken place here in Fiji. His moments with Taylor Launter, Drake Bell & Josh Peck, meeting Ari, Olena, & above all Kris Allen. We all know with these memories that I'm allowing him to see right now, will trigger his love for Joe Jonas. Ari knows its Joe that Nick loves the most, so for now ... Nick while have pieces to the puzzle & begin to realize the ultimate truth. I'm really honored that Ari sent me to do this, cause usually as dolphins sure we engage in conversations with girls & boys of all ages who have the gift & even if they don't we still confront them. This ability to show the past is extremely hard to do, but thanks to Ari I learned & was entrusted to try it out. Not all dolphins can do this, it takes a lot of power, faith, & one with the purest intentions. And I'm just a baby, & I get to do this! I'm so blessed & meeting Nick was the best!*

Nick: *I began to truly remember these moments, but still other things were distant & unclear. I held my heart the whole time in viewing all these memories, I've lived an amazing life, I really have. I'm so thankful for what I have, its incredible. Joe. Joe. Joe. My knees are feeling so weak, & my mind is spinning out of control. Oh Joe, what am I feeling? Its deeper than anything I've ever felt, stronger than what I felt from Kris. A moment in particular really makes me blush bright red ... Joe was hugging me & not letting go. In the memory, I was struggling to get out of his grip, but he continued to hold me tighter, forever embracing me. He really cares for me ... Then it hit me. This feeling ... Oh my God! I'm ... in ... love ... with ... Joe, my brother!! I'm never felt anything so much than what I feel right now. I'm smiling happier than ever. I love you Joe. Your my #1. Your my best friend, my brother, my 1 true love. I can't believe it, I'm so happy right now! I can see no one else but Joe, oh my sweet Joe. I love you, truly, most definitely. I don't care if were brothers or about anyone else, I know that all along I've felt this way. He comforts my soul & I know he is where I belong. I found my heart, my soul, my ultimate love, my one & only. Now I really want to see him! Joe I love you!*

Emmi: *Giggling & extremely happy for him. Wonderful job Nick, you've realized who's in your heart. I'm so happy for you! I wish you nothing but the best right here & in the future. Now I must go, it was splendid meeting you Nick! I hope to see you again! Backs away from Nick & turns in a circle spinning. Good luck Nick & bye for now! Winks/swims away*

Nick: *Lets go of her flippers/wipes tears away, then waves goodbye. Thank you so much Emmi!! I'll see you again, I know it! Watches her swim off until I can no longer see her. Thats when I took off running back to the house, laughing happily & so in love. I want to write a song for Joe, I know exactly what I want to say & what I want it to sound like!*