Goodbye Love

What are my
word(s) worth

Nothing
apparently

Due to my own fault

I let them drown in silence
to protect a faulty man
who knows not love
nor how to give it

I thought
I saw the words
creeping into my mind
any word worth its worth
spilled out of my eyes

But I love a blind man

I am self expressed scripture
flowing across the rhyme
the tears know their path
down my cheeks oh so well

Ive got fire burning
in my eyes

I was so sick
of all your lies

The rage of wanting to hit a wall
or beat your face to a bloody pulp
is a constant need
I have a desire
to make
you bleed

Filled with screams
torn at the seams
feels like a bomb
about to explode

True thoughts
should be brought to light
but harsh words
will only start a fight

I am so caught between
drowning in thought and sorrow
betrayed by love

You broke my heart
as if it were made
of fine glass
and seek to mend
my pieces
with your
hollow
sorrys
and poor
excuses

But you can never fix
that which you so
carelessly broke

I'm so
f*****g gone
that I haven't
seen me
in days

What must you think of me
so full of grief and misery
so over run with pain
and going insane

How must you feel
to see how bad I feel
unable to cope or accept
this so dreadfully depressed
truth that you are not the man
I believed you to be

I now see you as less

How hard you must cry
when you see the tears
flooding my eyes
to know that I can’t
let go of the pain
that I'm stewing in

How sad you must be
to see such sadness in me
to know that in my heart
I feel so torn apart

How disappointed you must be
when you gaze upon me
and what you see
is just so weak
and broken
by your lies
on top of lies
a constant
multiplying
sorrow
of seeds
that you plant
inside of me

Inside of me grows
your child are your
seeds penetrating
his heart does he know
what I know about you
does he feel my aching pain
and the change in my heartbeat
every time you speak

I cant even
look at you
and not be
filled with pain
and despair
distrust and hate

I inhale deep
to draw myself back inside of me
tiny pieces of my sanity
fragmented

I hold my breath
to keep my insecurities in check

I die upon the doubt
in my chest

Suffocating

I swallow hard
slicing my throat
to bloody shreds

With swollen eyes
and sullen sorrow
I type the words you read
acidic tears flow down my face
with the press of every key

I pour myself into this thought
with every ounce of me

In the morning I awake
reminded of the pain I feel
with every breath I take
my wounded heart skips a beat
to set a jagged broken pace

The sky falls in front of my face
and turns the world to grey

I step around my shadow
as to not cause more pain

I lay down to sleep
the darkness falls upon my eyes
and my spirit begins to weep

My f*****g eyes are swollen
and my heart beats heavy in my chest
my mind races in circles
collapsing upon itself

Death does not come quickly
for one with a broken heart
the healing process is agonizingly slow
the quietus of death would be a relief
for my tattered heart

The voices will not cease
nor images of you in her arms
not even for a moments time
the emotions relent
and batter me

Wounds align themselves
atop scar tissue

Liquid pain flows
across my psyche

They play
endlessly
in my head

As silent tears
run down their
familiar path
along my cheeks

I have been to long
floating upon the breath
of a dying thought

Nothing becomes everything
and everything is cast aside

It all matters naught
when the air is burning

Invisible flames
scorch the edges
of reality

I'm lost to isolation
and my lips go unkissed

Cause his kisses mean nothing

and I am just to weak to say goodbye



By Samantha Pruitt

Reviews

[Eddie Phillips]

There is love, pain, and longing in this poem that is so tangible that it hurts you while you read it. That is a testament to the ability to connect with the reader's emotions. I felt the pull and tug of this poem. Samantha your words will never fall on deaf ears.

[Samantha ~virginpoet]

Thanks that means a lot to me and reading what you said made me feel it all over again lol but in a new light

[KaylasPoetryBook]

There are so many lines of this poem that pulled at my heart. This brought back so many memories for me. I can relate to the pain you spoke about. Relationships like this can hurt so much, especially when you love them so deeply. You search your mind for all the reasons why loving someone has had such a painful price to pay. What a beautiful portrayal of your feelings. Thanks for allowing yourself to be vulnerable in sharing this piece. I wish you all the best, Lovely! (:

[GeminiRa]

sounds like a real depressing break up i went through a few years back...this poem really brings back so many feelings it made me cry...good work