Transition

I sleep in fits
fantasizing about you
as I fall in and out of the night

And the darkness
it falls into me
fills me with oblivion

because

Because I know
I'll wake up aching
for release

I feel like dying
at the thought
of doing this again

I don't think I can cope
and I have no answers
which urges my mind
to slur profanities
that don't reach my lips

I became engulfed
into a mode of pain

Because I'm a hymen-veiled virgin
watch me pulsate over the Feeling
intimate flutters softly utter

I'm fierce and wild
begging please caresses
the delicate skin of my soul

But today I am burdened
I woke up with my heart hurting

Mind searching

Brain answers ...

Your weak
Your s**t
Your stuped
Your a c**t

I hate myself
for being weak

Why do i need someone
to hold me tight?

My body is crawling
its f*****g grueling

I am sick of this
surface bullshit
I need more

I need more than your lips upon my flesh
I need more than your body tightly pressed
I need more than our unified hips connected
I need more than our lust to be projected
and reflected in each others eyes

I need to feel alive in more places
than just in between my thighs

Yet I’m lost in transition
often missing higher callings

I wanna be good
but my lips were made to sin

When I open my mouth
your caught up in the rapture
of my contorted scripture

Cause my soul is dressed in words
my skin waring metaphors

Learn me hard
oh learn me right

My Depth of Mind
is so refined

Yet Ive learned
how to manage my scars

But Ill never learn how
to put up a guard

And the words burned
as I thought about you

Crackling a sweet
cherry-flavored bliss

I think I've lost my mind
My thoughts are s p i n n i n g
and my bones are shaking
But I keep repeating
re-peating repeating
your name like a mantra

And I'm choking
on the ink dipped fingers
of verbs and metaphors
still lodged in this bruised
paper crane throat

because

Because words
have become tricky

And you’re going
to lean back amused
waiting to see what
I’ve come up with
hoping I drop my knees
on either side of you
slam your shoulders
against the couch
rip your shirt off
between animistic kisses

And with the same
heedless mercy
as I write

You want me
to ride you

But I'm not gonna

I'm going to just lie there
legs tightly closed
in a vice grip
moving in and out of particles
of light shimmering

Cause all i get is your
phantom touch

And I'm dying
to feel your raging lust
looming over me

When you hear
I'm a virgin
i want you to feel
my aggravation

because

Because You made me feel
loss so profoundly
that I woke with
my pillow soaked
mourning for you

Words have become tricky
and hearts are tricksters

I want you
and f**k
WANT is not
a strong enough word
to describe the need
i feel in every pore
every breath
every heart beat
that beats out your name

God i want you
more than any words
i could have in my mouth
or dripping out my pen
i want you more than
the need to write

But words have become tricky
and my heart is a trickster

And still

I would trade
my fingers
for minutes
spent with you

No words
can explain
only the expression
MMMM remains

because

Because my mind beckons
time to stop
so I can sigh

As the pen Caresses my
inner thighs
casting erotic
shadows on
paper walls
instructed
to scribe
body-write

Waiting to be filled
with your hot wet ink

Rubbing raw
Thoughts of you

Locked away
in the depths
of my core
are stanzas
yet to be found

Yet to be
released

But this pen is shaky
under the influence
of unsteady palms and
these keys are sticking

Who the hell am I
to harbor dreams
when I can barely
Handle Reality

My eyes strategically
shift as if they're caught
in the abyss

But it was artistic expression
And some artistic depression
Helping to rid the demons   

Yet the Darkness is still calling

Whispering in the shadows of
my soul with a sultry calling voice
As my night transforms into words

And so I have to take it
one day at a time
Knowing one day I’ll be just fine
Writing bits and pieces of me
Transcripts of my verbal bleeds

And if this freestyle
doesn't convince you
bring me your lips
and I'll show you what I can do

By Samantha Campbell

Author's Note

"I would trade my fingers for minutes spent with you" that line is by Keegan D'souza

and this was in part inspired by the song Not with Haste by Mumford and sons and I used a line or 2 from their song



“Our love of each other was like two long shadows kissing without hope of reality.”
Anaïs Nin

"When you look long into an abyss, the abyss looks into you." ~Friedrich Nietzsche

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” - Maryanne Williamsonit. From her book, "Return to Love"

im just a raiditing light my soul burns so bright all you see is the light of love burning through my pours~ me

Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well-preserved body. But rather, to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming .... WOW what a ride!

Reviews

[The 13th Eros]

Darkness and daylight call to release your passion; an agony for affection to release you. There is no shame in wanting what you were created for, and you were created for pure ecstasy.

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

At first one might assume that it has a conotation to read, but in fact it is really easy to the ye, well done, good read.

[Coyote Poetry]

In the heat of desire. Best to let passion run wild and free. I like the thoughts and the description of need. The thoughts led the reader on a wild and good ride. Thank you for the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Justin Littlefield]

Wow. It's like a hunger, you're starving for something you're tormented to reject. If you take it, part of you dies. Like a malnourished African given a feast laced with arsenics. I really was in to this piece, I really felt your heart poured into it. almost like your darkest secret, one you've bottled up your whole life and finally being able to release it. Great write!

[KeeD]

I've been taken on a journey in this piece, it's like I got to know you better, the real you, the you trapped inside crying out for that one thing that is so important to you.. that one person that can fill the void that has been empty for so long .. you made this amazing poem and let your personality shine through with words. Thank you for honoring us with the pleasure of reading this, reading you.. it's amazing

[The Doctor]

Very good song. You have a very...profound way of writing. I never get tired of it and I never stop enjoying it-erotic or not. What I love about your writing is the truthfulness, the fact that your heart is in it, and -most of all- it is relatable. I deeply enjoy your writing, and I thank you for your talent. I thank you that you are willing to share. And for that I am honored. Excellent work.

[Samantha ~virginpoet]

Im not happy with this just yet

[KeeD]

It's the most amazing, epic, mind blowing, honest, emotional piece i've ever read.. you should be happy and so so proud of yourself. What a great write